So...Do You Believe in Vampires?

 

MAY I COME IN?

    In some ways my childhood was typical of a middle class American child in the 1990s. In others it was not. Some of my earliest memories are of various strange paranormal activity which I have detailed before in the past. I had two older siblings, an older brother and an older sister one year younger than him. They were around ten years old or so when I was born in the early 1990s in Florida. I remember waiting for my sister and brother to come home from their middle school when I was around three years old. I was excited that they were coming home and I kept hearing about school and wanted to know what it was and what they did there. Sometimes they would bring a friend home with them and I always wanted to say hello and know who they were; some children are naturally happy and curious.

    One afternoon my mother said aloud that it was about the time they would be coming home from school. I waited by my siblings bedrooms so I could say hi and see if I would be invited into their rooms. I heard the front door open and I could hear my sister speaking with someone. The person asked in a friendly high young woman's voice, "Are you sure it's okay if I come in?", and my sister said something like, "Hold on I'll ask if you are allowed inside."  to which the other person said "Okay". This other persons voice certainly carried more than my sisters. My mother walked towards the door and said hello. My sister asked if her friend Regina could come in and the young woman asked if she was allowed inside to which my mother in a very loud friendly voice said it was okay. As my sisters friend Regina said "Oh, okay. Thank you", I heard her voice grow slightly louder as they entered the house so I knew they were inside. 

    Looking back its like she was really making sure she entered with permission. This might seem typical but a lot of kids and teens would walk in with the friend because going to a friends house isn't a big a deal and if the parents say no friends over today the friend will just walk out and leave. No big deal. It was different with her. She also seemed very well spoken for her age too.

    I knew they were coming so I ran into my sisters room; this way even if I was not allowed in her room if I was already in I could get a good look at her friend before getting kicked out. My sister walked in with her friend. Not to put my sister down but she was not the most popular girl in middle school. She was a nice girl and soft spoken but a bit overweight and just didn't have a ton of friends. She had self esteem issues. Regina befriending her just did not seem like it fit the usual social order. She was 5'4 in height and pretty with a bit of an athletic build and a likeable smile and voice. She definitely seemed good with people and again my sister was a bit quiet and shy. Regina was white and pretty fair skinned, had long dark hair a bit past her shoulders if I remember correctly, and was wearing a dark blue dress that went past her knees but not to the ground. It was not a common clothing style back then and it just kind of stood out later. She may of had a small backpack but I don't remember. 

    They both sat on my sisters bed with Regina at the beds foot. As she sat Regina gave me a smile and waved at me and I may of waved back. Looking back as an adult, my sister was around thirteen years old and the girl was supposed to be as well but there was something different about her; she was hiding something and was just not a normal teenager but she was good at blending in. I later learned to do the same thing but I was still far from perfecting it by thirteen years old. There was something about her that did not match a friendly thirteen year old girl like the way she spoke. The way she looked at me and smiled was the way an adult woman would have and not many teenage girls did. As an innocent and trusting three year old I just kind of accepted it. This is Regina. She was pretty and I wanted to stay in the room and hear what she had to say and learn about her like any of my siblings friends. 

    My mother called me out of the room so the two girls could talk. On my way out she said something about me being cute, which was common, and asked something about me and my sister said I was three years old going on four.

    They talked for a while and the girl left. My sister told my mother some of the girls story which I overheard and she told me some more later. My mother started to really doubt a lot of it. Regina was European, specifically Transylvanian from the country Romania, and traveled a lot throughout Europe and also the world. European students were rare in American public schools the entire time I was in school and she basically vanished after a week or two. This was also rare. 

    She came from money and a royal background, specifically the Bathory's who were Romanian Hungarian nobility. I believe Bathory was Regina's last name. Why did she come here to St. Lucie county, Florida of all places? She was related to Vlad Tepesh or Vlad the Impaler. She new tons of people including famous Hollywood and music industry celebrities; I think she may of claimed she was in a Hollywood movie but wouldn't say which. She loved the bands Led Zeppelin and ACDC, as well as lots of other music and was an atheist. She loved films, especially older films, anime, and video games like Darkstalkers. She really liked the character Morrigan Aensland who was a vampire.

    Her skin was flawless, not a freckle, spot, scar, or anything and her dark eyes were not dark brown but black. She said she was very athletic and very smart and could speak many languages; she even spoke to my sister in some of them. She may of mentioned her best friend was named Viktoria, and emphasized with a K and not a C. At one point she looked at my sister and said in an almost mischievous voice with a very telling look in the eye, "So (my sisters name)...do you believe in vampires?".  It was so strange that my sister didn't know what to say and got the distinct feeling that this very strange and eccentric person might of actually been a vampire. She was basically saying that and gauging my sisters response. It kind of scared her.

    There were other details shared at their school but this is just what I remember my sister telling me. As I said above she then vanished shortly after. My sister may or may not of given her one of her two little amethyst clusters, I am not sure. My sister really wondered if she was a vampire.

 

    

DISGUISES

    One day, maybe the following year, my sister showed up with Regina who was apparently back and not doing any kind of normal schooling. She did not seem to live a normal life for a thirteen to fourteen year old. Unlike last time where she made sure to get permission to come in and had made her presence known in an open and friendly way, she sneaked in with my sister making sure not to be seen by my mother. It was very intentional and kind of shady. Even as a little boy it seemed off to me. She had her hair down and a wool cap, maybe black colored, pulled down pretty low and a big baggy red hoodie sweater. I don't remember what kind of pants she wore. Under her arms were tucked a stack of maybe board games and hidden in them was a Ouija board. My mother was very Catholic and did not like Ouija boards which I think Regina knew but didn't care. She made some effort to hide the board and also her appearance. 

    They went into my sisters room for a while. I don't know what they did but playing with Ouija boards can be dangerous and with all of the activity in the house already its hard to say if they summoned dark entities into our home or not. Regina was talking to my sister and saying goodbye so I went to her room. Regina left the room and walked past, quietly saying goodbye without looking at me. She left and my mother never knew she was there. 

 

WACKY WORLD

    Sometime later my sister was getting off of her bus to walk home after school. She was in maybe eighth grade or just into high school, I don't know, and at her bus stop in a car with someone was Regina. It may of been her friend Viktoria. She told my sister to take off her backpack which she did even though she was a bit confused. Regina handed her a Sega video game and a controller.

    She had been back in St Lucie county for a while and had a game to play in her spare time. She said that she was leaving and thought it would be nice for my sister and I to have the game. She said goodbye and something like, "Tell your brother I said hi," and "I hope he likes the game", or something close. My sister told me about it when she got home and said with a bit of a perplexed smile, "Wow, she must really like you." I think it bothered her and she thought it was kind of strange considering I had only seen Regina twice but never spoke to her or really interacted with her. A lot of my siblings friends liked me so it didn't stand out much at the time. Maybe Regina liked kids? My sister had told Regina about me and my sister clearly thought I was special or different in some way. Looking back with everything else that has happened there was probably more to it going on. My sister said nothing more of it.

    The game was a Sega themed art creator game called Wacky Worlds Creativity Studio. I had to look up the name. It came with a computer mouse and had six levels that were like an interactive art canvas. One looked like the surface of the moon and another one was under the ocean. You could put any number of things on the canvases and mix and match objects like underwater objects such as fish on the moon canvas. To erase everything their was a bomb you clicked and everything blew up. I had a lot of fun with it and it became one of my favorite childhood games. 

    My cousin who was a year older asked "Where did you get this game?", to which I answered "My sisters friend showed up at her bus stop and gave us it. We think she might be a vampire.". He was strangely open minded about it even though he was very Catholic and we never talked about vampires once other than this. That side of the family are like middle ages Catholic. They are ridiculously Catholic at times. We both had a lot of fun with the game.

 

SON OF HEAVEN

    In the late 1990's my sister was graduating High school. I was in first or second grade. It may of been her last day as a senior before the high school seniors left early. She was in her ceramics class. She had made some cool things like a castle and given me one or two of them. She made a bowl for me and it may of been finished that day if I am right. It was an off white color, somewhat creamy colored, and maybe six to eight inches across. Inside the bowl was a golden brown sun disc. In front of the disc was a white dragon eating its own tail like the Ouroboros symbol. On the back of the bowl it said 'Son of Heaven' and it was repeated in Chinese characters. My mother and sister always thought there was something different about me and this is probably why she made me the bowl and connected me to something benevolent and from somewhere else. I usually thought "okay guys take it easy". I just wanted to be a kid but I did like the bowl.

So she was in her class when the door opens up. In runs Regina looking around for my sister. My sister hadn't seen her in four or more years. My sister was a bit taller and thinner and had glowed up a bit from middle school which happens a lot from thirteen years old to eighteen years old. Regina looked exactly the same. She spotted my sister quickly and ran to her and threw her arms around her in a big hug. My sister was shocked. She asked Regina, "What are you doing here, oh my god you look exactly the same?". Regina, clearly very good at diverting from certain subjects, asked her how she was and how her family was. My sister told her everyone was fine and she had a new baby brother. My mother had given birth to my younger brother around this time. 

    Regina looked at the bowl and they talked about it and maybe something else very briefly, I am not sure. At some point during this my sister tried asking how Regina knew where to find her and I think that's when she abruptly told my sister, "I have to go" and to tell me that she said hello again. My sister came home, gave me the bowl, and told me what happened making sure to mention Regina's hello, "Oh and Regina said hello again.". As she did she had a perplexed smile like last time like it seemed a bit off to her but she liked Regina and just kind of shrugged it off. Lots of people thought I was a cute kid. Regina was just that nice but odd person my sister knew. We really did wonder if she was a vampire.

THE VAMPIRE MASQUERADE

    I believe a year or two after my sisters experience in her ceramics class, I had a particularly strange Halloween. I was in third or fourth grade. Normally for Halloween my mother and I had my costume a couple weeks ahead of time as well as a route planned. I think she liked holidays more than me and liked to relive her childhood through her children to some degree. On the day of this Halloween I was asked in school what I would wear. I told them we don't have a costume yet and my class was in shock and no one could believe it. We didn't have a route planned either. My teacher smiled and said I better go pick something after school. 

    My mother was strangely in no rush after school though. We thought about it but no ideas came to mind. I remember not caring that much about it or trying to force a choice. Looking back it was like it was supposed to happen like this. I was in the master bedroom looking into the bathroom mirror and my mother came in and very enthusiastically said "Oh I know you can go as a vampire!", and I said OK and was alright with it. I never went as something like a vampire before or after this. My grandmother made me a tiger costume when I was a baby. After that I liked to go as Batman, once as the grim reaper, or something unique but never vampires, mummies, ghosts. or other spooky things from old movies. 

    We went and bought the costume and makeup. We got home and I started dressing up and my mother told me she had called my aunt and we would go trick or treat with my cousins in their neighborhood. Even though this aunt lived close by we rarely went with them on Halloween. We took the well lit main road Bayshore down a ways and then turned onto a side street with only a few street lights. Down this street we made a turn onto my cousins dark street. It was already dark when we arrived at their house so I figured we were late.

    My cousin, the one who I talked to about Regina possibly being a vampire, was dressed up as football player Dan Marino, and I don't recall what my other cousins were but they weren't ready yet.  My mother decided that we would just go for a walk for some reason and just started walking. I couldn't stay with my cousin, I specifically had to go with her. It was a bit like when she would walk away from me in stores when I was a small child and lose me. People would find and try to help me and she would show up thinking they were trying to abduct me. She was usually entity controlled.

    

    It was a typical warm south Florida Halloween night. She pushed my baby brother in a stroller who was wearing the baby tiger costume that I had worn, and I walked behind in my little vampire boy costume. I looked a little bit like the boy from the Munster's which I watched as a kid. She walked down my cousins dark street the way we had arrived and got to the one with the few streetlights; she then turned down this one and started back towards Bayshore. I asked if we could stop at some houses for candy and she said no, as if we had to get somewhere. We passed under one of the few streetlights. Back then before LED lighting was more common the lights had an eerie yellow, sometimes yellow orange, glow. They illuminated the street in a soft light that gradually faded with distance; they were not as piercing and unnatural as the LED's are. 

    She got to a certain point and just abruptly said "Alright lets go back now". Again on the way back I was not allowed to hit up any houses for some reason. She always did things without thinking and was half there. Looking back its like something had control of her and it was meant to be timed a certain way, unbeknownst to my mother of course. I was used to it so I just walked behind her.

    We were getting close to my cousins street. The pavement up ahead was illuminated by the glow of the same streetlight from before; passing underneath it and shining in its glow were two young women, now walking towards us. They were casually walking in single file and as they left the light we passed each other. The one in front had her dark hair pulled up. She looked somewhat pale and had a white button up shirt with maybe baggy sleeves and a dark skirt that went just past her knees. The shirt was a bit like an older style shirt. They might call it a pirate shirt today. There may of been something draped over her shoulders, like a cape or coat, but I cannot remember. I think it was a vampire costume. She said hello to my mother as they passed each other, looked and smiled at me next, and turned back and told her friend in a feminine voice that stood out, "Look that cute little boy is dressed like a vampire". She seemed to enjoy it. I don't remember if she used the other persons name.

    Her friend following behind her was a bit taller with blonde hair and I can't recall but it may of been pulled up. I think her arms may of been crossed and she wore a similar outfit like something a vampire might wear in an old vampire film. The friend glanced at me as we passed by and acknowledged me and my costume but seemed less friendly than the other girl. She may of seemed slightly pleased. I don't think she said hello to my mother. She may of nodded acknowledging her existence but that's it. I looked back as my mother and I passed under the light; the young women took a side street and we didn't see them again. We then turned onto my cousins street into darkness and later went trick or treating. 

    The first girl looked and sounded a lot like Regina did the five years earlier but I didn't even notice between her hair being up and the vampire costume on top of a lot happening in that five years. The second girl may of been her friend Viktoria and she may of used her name when commenting on my costume. My mother had put on some weight after having my brother and looked a bit different. She had only briefly seen Regina once so they didn't recognize each other. I was a bit taller and also wearing a vampire costume so she did not recognize me either. As time went on I completely forgot about Regina and I believe my sister did as well. I kept the dragon bowl. It was strangely something of mine from my childhood that my mother never pushed me to get rid of in my teens, or just threw out while I was in school. It just became the dragon bowl my sister made for me with no connection to anyone else. 

     

 WHY DO I KEEP THINKING ABOUT VAMPIRES?

    Some of my earliest memories were of the paranormal. It was always there and was a defining part of my childhood. I had to experience these things and then repress them. I could not stop them and could not ask for help because of very unreasonable parents who would deny it was happening and punish me for talking about it. There was definitely a lot of narcissistic abuse in that house too and it is connected with the dark paranormal. It was all part of the archon network control grid. The dark paranormal was defining yet I couldn't remember any of it. I always knew the abusive people were wrong as much as they tried to convince me everything was my fault. I always knew I was good and meant well and there was something wrong here.

    I was always open to paranormal and supernatural subjects but it was not till my late teens when I began heavily looking into the alternative media that I began recalling the childhood paranormal experiences. New paranormal activity blew up around this time and did not stop. I had already been trying to piece things together and journal about why I felt different which I would later find was a small part of what is called shadow work. It all continued and expanded. It was brutal at times but I made the best of it. 

    This continued on into my late twenties and in early 2018 on the 2012 Portal blog, Cobra linked to a site called onvampires wordpress. I was fascinated by it and read one or two parts nearly everyday as well as a part of Shane the Ruiners blog until they were finished. I only read through it once but I thought about the onvampires site nearly everyday for a long time even though I never cared much for vampire stuff.

    The onvampires site was wrote by a young man from Romania but was largely about his experiences with the vampire queen named Regina. My memories of her had been completely buried under lots of trauma, distractions, and time and I just could not remember any of it. I think it was a part of my obsession with the site. My point with this is not to be overly harsh or judgemental of the author and Regina but just reasonable and objective interpretations along with personal thoughts and experiences. She did not harm me but it could go deeper than that which I will get to later. I will probably use some of his pics from his site because most vampire related images on the internet are ridiculous.

    The site had a dark feel to it energy wise. The story basically starts with the queen and a few friends nearly murdering the author. She comes back after two days of him being stuck in a tomb nearly dying from dehydration, and decides not to kill him and he feels like he was rescued by her from her friends. 

    There are so many red flags throughout the story from not just Regina but the author of the site too. Listing them would sound personal so I will keep it light. There are a lot of cluster B traits and behavior all around. So much of what I read seemed psychopathic. She offers him the option to turn into one of them or be killed. She was a beautiful youthful looking woman and used heavy sex appeal and he seemed to like it and wanted to go along with it. The vampires did lots of bad things over centuries and he was still willing to play along, but they were also threatening to kill him and he did have heavy Stockholm syndrome. It was complex and he was also so young. The author and Regina might of really loved one another. She was a huge part of his life for years. He may have turned into a vampire later for her. 

    There is a lot I don't know like why the site is still out there. I wonder if his mission was getting the inside information out there to the public? If you don't mind some darkness I still recommend reading it. I will post pictures from his site later on. One is of an actress who looks like Regina. Another is of her in a car and another I believe is her friend Viktoria. Pictures of them are rare and they were and may still be incredibly dangerous but I will take a chance.

    This type of vampire was very social and organized and they numbered around a million, mostly in Europe in groups of four to five hundred, but with outposts in major cities around the world. They were like a secret society, a country, a multi-national organization, an army, a human sacrifice cult, and a large parasite. They sound very psychopathic and were incredibly fast, strong, intelligent, and super predatory. They killed a lot of people and most were atheistic. People were just a meal to them. They didn't seem to have much of their own culture and remind me of the Kurgan type cultures that copied from others and had lots of reptilians. 

 

  

 DEJA VU OVER AND OVER

    So it was 2018. I noticed something strange as I had read through the site. It got to be pretty crazy the number of times where a reference in the site jumped out at me and really grabbed my attention. I encountered so many of them before in different ways. 

    The world always tried to tell me I was evil or wrong and I never bought it. I was good and was being targeted by things seen and unseen. Evil hated me. I had always encountered abnormal things in various forms. I have had owls block the road before. I have had to knock soldier demons out of my house and command others to leave before. With all of the dark paranormal activity I had as well as Pleiadian contact and numerous other things, I trusted my intuition. It was usually right although my interpretations of it were another story. I knew there was something important in the onvampires site and I knew I had been prepared for it.

    My older step brother had never had much interaction with Regina. When I was a child going into early teens he would show me films like The Matrix and Blade (the marvel vampire hunter) or even documentaries about 9/11. He questioned how much truth was in those films and he really wondered about Blade and The Matrix. He was waking up, threw me some puzzle pieces, and one day started really obnoxiously going back to sleep which was strange. It all seemed destined. My sister liked to tell me about vampire films at one point like Bram Stokers Dracula and Interview with a Vampire. I didn't even like stuff like that. She let me borrow games like Devil May Cry and Onimusha. She wanted me to borrow the vampire games Bloodrayne 1 and 2 but I just didn't feel compelled to play them. She tried more than once. 

    Another example would be Regina's favorite bands Led Zeppelin and ACDC. I was in the garage in my early to mid teens around 2005, and saw a box sitting by the industrial freezer. In it was a bunch of my parents old ACDC tapes and CDs. I am not even sure why they were sitting there. I had never listened to much music and I started listening and became acquainted with them. I feel as though it was meant to happen. My sophomore year of high school around 2007, there was a senior girl who was talking aloud in class to someone and it really stood out when she said she was an atheist and her favorite band was Led Zeppelin, just like Regina which I would recall later. I gave them a listen too. I feel I was being familiarized with them.

    By itself of course its just coincidence as these are famous bands but this happened so many times. Numerous things I came into contact with from childhood into my mid twenties ended up being in the site and having importance to Regina, the author, or both. When I had come across them before, they really had stood out and seemed almost fated yet random and unimportant at the time; like it would make sense later and to forget it for now.

    For another example, one night in my early to mid twenties, around 2014, I could not sleep and turned the TV on. Playing was the vampire alien movie Lifeforce, the part where the vampire formed inside the helicopter from blood. It looked like a really strange 1980's movie but I just felt compelled to record it and watch it later. I had no idea who Regina was at the time as I still had vampire amnesia but this film has a connection to her and the author of the site mentioned it, and when I read it later I just knew I had seen the film for a reason. 

    It was around the same time, 2014, that I had an old movie phase, one of which I remember being the Barbarian and the Geisha with John Wayne which is unrelated. I was home in my bedroom and saw a film called the Baroness and the Butler on TV and it really stood out to me. I was in a sort of flow state and recorded it to watch in bed. It seemed fated and it just so happened to be my sisters old bedroom, the one that Regina had been in years earlier. I did not know at the time but Regina is actually in the film. I believe her character is a maid in the beginning and she sounds just like young woman I remember in the house with a voice that really stands out. This happened with numerous TV shows and movies mentioned on the site as well. I feel its too much for coincidence. 

    During this time I had some younger friends I would occasionally talk to, one subject being the paranormal. One of them was around 19 years old and like me he had combat training, although his was far more extensive, as well as paranormal experiences. He was in training with the private military contractor Academi, previously Blackwater. My Academi friend even mentioned the onvampires site to me but I never cared much for vampire stuff and I heard they had a queen named Regina and I just couldn't place it with anything I knew of. I just shrugged it off and forgot about it. I was usually so open minded about things too but it was not time yet.

    The years leading up to 2018, vampire Morrigan Aensland kept showing up in random ads online too for some reason. Regina was a fan. It was odd and I couldn't place who she was at the time. Her image really stood out and I kind of liked it.

    There were various bands that I just seemed to easily find in my teens and gave a listen that are mentioned by the sites author like Deftones. The same thing with the video games mentioned. There are so many examples like this. After I read the site there were artists showing up in my youtube feed that had been mentioned. Many of the historical figures mentioned like some of the numerous nobility and royal families are distant ancestry of mine, such as Vlad Tepesh. There are western and northern European nobility that are related to Vlad. Some of those nobles came here to the Americas. 

    There were Grey noblemen on my family tree as another example so the Grey nobleman mentioned may of been an ancestor as well. Many of my experiences with all things media and history related almost mirrored and paralleled the various media mentioned on the site. I had an interest on and off with the mystic Rasputin who worked for Regina. It really bothered me because even though none of these things involved me it seemed like there was still something important I couldn't see. 

 

INVISIBLE ODYSSEY

    I have always had trouble sleeping and am usually up at night. I have above average night vision and well above average hearing. I can hear bat echolocation and there have been so many odd owl experiences as well as numerous nighttime UFO sightings. I am very sensitive to noise, bright light like LED, and energy. My Academi friend used to call me Batman because of the way I am and how I am quiet and can easily disappear. 

    While taking an art class one day I got up from my work to use the bathroom. The room was situated with a circle of tables. Objects were placed in the center of the circle that had to be drawn or painted. Everyone was looking to the center of the room at the objects and could easily see the other students sitting across from them on the other side of the room. We were all facing each other. When I got back to my seat, people were shocked. They didn't even see me get up and leave. This was typical. I was marked absent a lot in school like the teachers just couldn't see me. My point is people often saw me as odd or spooky or a nocturnal creature of the night. These are other odd parallels to the vampires mentioned in the site.

 

    Regina had a strange necklace pendant which ended up in the possession of the author through the black eyed children. There is a lot of nonsense out there about them and what the site says is very different. The pendant is the Ouroboros dragon but with an upside down star and a piece of jade in the center. It is a key part of the story. The author would die without the pendant. It does not seem like a good symbol and according to Cobra jade may of been tied up with the dark energetically. Not saying the author was evil. I did not notice the parallel at the time with the necklace pendant and my Ouroboros dragon bowl that Regina held and complimented (why did that happen?). It was just a simple ceramic bowl but considering the symbols I think it means more. They almost seem like positive and negative counterparts. 

    I remember Cobra doing an interview about Tachyonis and various stones. Dendritic opal and agate stood out to me as well as moldavite, cintimani, carnelian and carnelian agate, citrine, amethyst, and others. I had an interest in them and wanted them someday. Afterwards I read on the onvampires site about Regina's lair. In her lair are many belongings including gifts like most of the aforementioned stones which all stood out. I did eventually purchase my own stones and then it hit me about the similarity. 

    

    Regina met famous mystic Padre Pio too. Sitting in our house on a book shelf in my childhood and also teens was Padre Pio The True Story. I remember seeing his face and mystical expression on the cover but I wasn't ready yet. She did not show him what she was or harm him and she said he seemed like a very good man. I remembered the book afterwards and this is part of the reason I read it in 2019 and it certainly had an impact. 

    Afterwards a Pio and St. Francis figurine came to my house right to me. My aunt gave me the Pio figure and my brother brought the Francis figure. I felt a strong kinship with Pio. I know what it is like to ask God if you can go home because of how alien it feels here. We went through similar things like the dark entity attacks and isolation and I even considered if we were one and the same. I denied it and my face changed into his in the mirror one day and I believe I felt his beautiful, light, and innocent presence. My problem is I don't want to be like all of those new age people who thought they were St. Germaine or Cleopatra when there could only be one. I am sure I will find out. 

    My great grandmother may have known him when they were children in southern Italy. Around 1980 my grandfather on that same side of the family had a heart attack. He awoke in the hospital to find Pio and his mother, my great grandmother, standing at the foot of his bed in conversation while watching him. They talked about what a good man he was and how he had a good family. The two had been dead for years. Did Pio help him pull through? Was this one of his numerous miracles which continued on after his death?

    I was born around a decade later and my grandfather thought I was different and very special, even more so than with most grandparents and grandchildren. It was right before the time of the 1996 archon invasion and great forgetting when he died in 1993. I don't believe in coincidence. My mother, uncle, and grandmother were hit with a strong incense like smell when they received the news. My mother was reading a book about Pio. I was sleeping nearby. 

    I tried to place the vampires into human society to see where they fit or if they are related to this globalist cabal structure, and if so how? Cobra described them as human reptilian hybrids. What is that? According to Shane the Ruiner when the reptilians took over the planet twelve to thirteen thousand years ago after Atlantis fell there was a huge suppression of human consciousness as well as genetic meddling. The vampirism is like a hybridization  they put into people that just has to be activated. 

    If this is true it could be in everyone right now. The archon network made a huge problem for the surface population. They probably heavily influenced the vampires and according to onvampires they targeted lightworkers like Saint Germaine and many others. The dark forces could probably use this and say it wasn't directly them doing it. There were legalities all throughout this supernatural war and the dark never seemed to follow the rules.

    I remember not feeling home anywhere and just having no soul resonance with others. My inner storm and chaos were beating me. It can be constant and intense racing thoughts, literally multiple things at once and numerous scenarios of how these things could go. Lots of worry and 'what if's' with lots of very dark emotions that were very stuck. They could be about bad memories or future possibilities. Over time I would make sense of things and have realizations or revelations and make progress and the storm would lighten but other times were just brutal and hard to control. The storm would not let up. I would fight it with lots of willpower and sometimes preoccupations. Day to day routines and usually enjoyable things were not working to keep my mind at bay and I felt awful and hopeless. 

    Dark thoughts of the vampires showing up and killing me started up whenever I did not want to be here. They were dark but also relieving. Regina would talk to me for a while and comfort me and then put me to sleep forever. Then I would be reminded that she didn't like mercy killings but it was still comforting. According to Cobra most of them had been removed in 2018 to 2019 so it was probably not even possible but it was still a dark reoccurring thought I had from time to time.

    I remember being half asleep maybe in 2019 and I had a very dark and erotic dream of me and Regina having sex. The energy was very dark, almost demonic. In my minds eye I became aware of a dark entity nearby in the room. It had a horrible imposing and hostile presence and looked like the pyramid heads from the Silent Hill video games, although it wore something that could be described as priestly robes. I quickly woke up to the dark energy and presence which was still present. I am not ashamed of that experience but I am not happy about it or proud of it. I was alone and hopeless and the void was filled, in this case with something sexual and unholy. I feel I was very tapped into the dark energetically at the time and I really wondered what the archon networks interest was with me and vampires. 

    The pyramid head, much like the alien xenomorphs, are actual dark entities on the astral plane that have been anchored into human consciousness by dark occultists as physical beings in films and games. I have seen them, remote viewer Lawrence of Purple Energy has too, as well as many others.

 

PIECE BY PIECE IT COMES BACK 

    2018 all the way through 2021 were very tough years for me. When it would get really bad sometimes my mind went to being turned into a vampire and killing people until the light forces would come and take me out of here and send me into the central sun. Of course I would have never actually done that but I really did not want to be here. I believe this was all in the dark tunnel I saw in 2018. I called it the abomination, a mass of anomalous archon network darkness that had to be destroyed, but I now believe it is actually called the abyss and is inside of me. It was an endless tunnel of black filled with inhuman moaning, wailing, and sobbing. It may be everything I have ever experienced and absorbed inside of the archon network. I will have to walk through it before I ascend.

    I had ten days in 2021 where the closest I have seen or felt to it is the night before Jesus's crucifixion where he is talking to God asking to be spared. I am talking the way its depicted in films like The Passion of the Christ or Jesus of Nazareth. The total despair, coldness, and emptiness. I started feeling better and improving in 2022. I actually did some very empowering things. I feel like the shadow work started showing signs of paying off. 

    I have heard shadow work can lead to recovery of repressed memories and my amnesia began lifting.

    If I am remembering correctly this experience happened sometime in June 2022. I was in my bedroom and I felt really good all of a sudden, like a light peaceful and blissful feeling came over me. I don't remember what I was doing but I just gently sat down, like it was meant to happen. It was like a movie played in my head and it was all I could see. 

    Similar things have happened before. In 2019 I recovered a sighting of a black disc in the sky when I was around three years old. My sister saw it too but denied it later so I was punished for talking about it. Regina showed up not long after. 

    So in June 2022 after sitting down, my head was hung and the feeling got a little more serious as the movie played; It wasn't bad but it was somber. 

    The memory was during a Halloween when I was a boy. It was around 1997 to 2000 but I cant be sure of the exact year. I was dressed as a vampire, which was unlike me to be a vampire for Halloween, and walking with my mother as she was pushing my brother in a stroller. Up ahead of us was a streetlight and passing under it were two young women, dressed sort of like vampires. We passed by each other and the dark haired girl in front made the comment to her friend something like "Look Viktoria, that cute little boy is dressed like a vampire.". I am pretty sure it was Viktoria. This could be the same person I saw, although I was looking up at her as we passed each other, so the angle was a bit different. She can blend in with regular people and is pretty but with a very intense and dangerous look at the same time.

 

    This was the Halloween mentioned earlier and I initially knew it was Regina but I said "Yeah right, that wasn't them", but I kind of knew. I chalked it up to the archon network throwing strange experiences at me my whole life and in this one the girl only looked like Regina and I was dressed as a vampire. It all somehow tied in with the website that hadn't been created back then. I did not want anymore strange things in my life and was in denial. I had been feeling better.

    About a year passed and in summer 2023 maybe late May or early June I had another experience where again, my consciousness felt light and clear and I just sat down. Another movie played and I recalled another memory. In this memory I was three to four and was standing in my sisters room. She came in with her friend Regina who wore the blue dress with her hair down and waved hello to me as I left the room. As soon as I recovered the girls name and disguise in this memory I admitted to myself it was her. Just like her disguise in onvampires when she blended into middle schools and high schools. She thought it was fun and got to know new people and recruit new members. Everything she told my sister was mentioned on the site as well. 

    This is a picture the author found on the internet of an actress who looks like Regina as well as a picture of her in a car. They resemble the person I saw. 

   

    I thought deeply about those times and fleshed out the Halloween and the after school experience. I wondered how many more I had had with her and why? I already kind of knew but my life had been very scripted by the archon network. The way that Halloween went where I had no costume or route but everything fell into place like it was supposed to happen. 

    My archon puppet empty vessel mother dressed me up like a little vampire boy and brought me right to Regina, one of the most dangerous people on the planet but she didn't recognize me because I was wearing the perfect disguise, the same modern pop culture vampire look that Regina had actually helped to normalize. 

    The pop culture vampire is predictive programming. Real vampires don't look like the goth looking vampires in films with white powder makeup skin, dark eye shadow, and old dark colored clothing. Some films like Blade and Underworld had the dark Matrix clothes and pale skin. The vampires had a hand in the blending of the goth look with vampires in films as well as the normalization of goth culture. Everyone knows that goth people are just strange and are not vampires, yet that is often the image people have of vampires. Belief in them is basically canceled out. It sounds like cognitive dissonance. Pale goth people that drink blood and catch on fire if sunlight touches them just sounds ridiculous. People now have trouble conceptualizing normal looking vampires. They wouldn't even know what to look for and talking about it would get you laughed at.

    Regina could walk out in public and although she was very fair skinned she wouldn't stand out too much. Goth people would draw way more attention than her and real vampires would blend right in with other people. There is also the normalcy bias where the paranormal is never taken seriously in secular society so they just don't believe in it. People are afraid of not being liked by others. I also think they have a deep fear of the archon network and have agreed to live blind to most of reality at some deep level.

    I was dressed like a vampire that Halloween and it protected me from vampires, but the vampires were also dressed like vampires. You cannot make this up. It is so insane but I do believe it happened specifically that way for good reason although I cannot see it yet. Dressing up as evil things to protect from evil might be part of the origin of Halloween or Samhain so it was also a very real Halloween experience. 

    So that Halloween she did not recognize me. But what if she had? What if she had shown up later when I was a teen or an adult? I think I would of had divine protection and been fine. That is why it was not my path and the necklace ended up with someone else. It was their mission. 

   

 

 

WHY?

    It may of been around this time where I saw something interesting. Regina's path and mine briefly intersected a handful of times when I was young and then the paths diverted. I came across so many of the things referenced on the site, that it was like our paths had diverted but stood parallel to each others, like at the archon level they wanted our paths still connected in some way. Maybe they were to intersect again but with most of the vampires  gone could that still happen?

    All kinds of scenarios played out in my mind and became a part of my inner storm. She did not harm me but my mind goes to dark places and it is not everyday that you encounter someone dangerous like that. There has to be more to it.  Maybe I am getting close to ascension, so they had Regina circling around for possibly nefarious reasons. Maybe I was forced by the archon network to take the strange and quiet life path that I did to be spared murder. My deal with the devil so to speak. This path may have afforded me divine protection from her. 

    Maybe she was to interfere with my life but after the 1996 archon invasion she was called off. I was trapped and had to sit and suffer and my ascension was postponed indefinitely. I don't believe her visit with Padre Pio was just curiosity at the archon level. I think they wanted her around different light workers to potentially intervene, just like with St. Germaine. He fulfilled his mission and wanted to do more but was intercepted by her. He turned and tried to continue on as a vampire but did not feel right as one of them. She killed him and he ascended.

    Was I being divinely protected and her appearance was just that, a brief appearance? Maybe things happened as they were supposed to. I don't know. I also considered that in the same way people see each other in different lifetimes that I have seen her in multiple lifetimes and that is what the whole thing was, a visit with someone from the past. I have had to put a stop to these thoughts because there is no way to know and it does me no good.

    In early 2024 I recalled the memory with the Ouija board. At first the memory was limited to Regina walking out of my sisters room with the red sweater and wool cap and saying goodbye to me. Then a bit later in spring 2024 I was rearranging and cleaning my room. I pulled out some old ceramics and saw the white dragon bowl my sister had made for me years ago. 

    Another movie played, this time my sister coming home from school and showing me the bowl, followed by her telling me, "You know who showed up today in my ceramics class? Regina! I couldn't believe it!" The bowl had the Ouroboros just like the author of the sites necklace pendant and I really feel they represent in some way good versus evil and considering the authors strong connection with Regina and my more brief and hidden in plain sight interactions with her I know there is more to it but again I cannot be certain.

    All of these little memory pieces involving Regina had to be expanded and made sense of. I put them in the beginning of this post as complete as possible. Memories aren't perfect but they are as close as I can get. Good intention and a strong desire for truth helped. 

    In late 2024 or early 2025, I am leaning toward the later, I remembered what I believe to be the last one where she gave my sister the Sega game before vanishing and showing back up for the ceramics class and Halloween stories later. I just don't recall which part of the Sega game experience I remembered first but its all there earlier in the post. Its probably my sister walking into maybe my bedroom and telling me what happened at the bus stop and giving me the game after we both played for a while. 

    On Tuesday May 13th, sometime after sunrise, I had a familiar night terror but with a unique difference. In this experience I was in my childhood home. The experience was very vivid and the feel was intense, dark, and foreboding. I don't remember much but I do remember being in the back of the house. I was walking away from the two bedrooms, one of which Regina had entered before, towards the back sliding glass door of the house. 

    I was in a state of fear as I rushed towards the door to try and secure the house. The door was cracked open for some reason and it was pitch black outside. I quickly shut and locked it with the feeling that I had done so just in time. I then rushed towards the front door in a panic as if the threat from behind the house had just been a ruse. I don't know how I knew but someone was trying to get in. I looked through the peephole and saw someone that resembled Regina although the appearance was slightly off. She was furious and trying to get in. I heard myself screaming and it woke me up. 

    I had reoccurring forms of the same dream taking place in my childhood home. Its like the home is the only safe place that exists. Although it is empty, lonely, and vulnerable inside it is still illuminated and everything outside is completely black. Like it is the only light in the world and it is all I have. Dark entities would get in and I would just be smothered in blackness and force myself awake to dark entities in the room. There are certainly dark things that do not want this post out.

    Not only have I worried about making this post for my life I also did not want further exposure of the remaining vampires in case they have acknowledged that there is supernatural good and evil warfare happening and real right versus wrong. Maybe they are trying to go to the light and are trying to keep quiet and have stopped killing. Once the last of the memories came back I decided to put it out there. 

    They could always reach out and ask me to take it down although no one really looks at my blog except a select small niche audience. 

    I went to the grocery store the night of the 13th. I was thinking of the vampires and a certain influencer. I passed by a dead crow that had probably been run over in the parking lot. It had a wing perfectly spread out, it was lying sideways, and its head was positioned so it was looking up at me. It looked almost symbolic. I always liked crows and was sorry to see it dead. There were too many people watching in the parking lot or I would have picked it up and put it over in the bushes as a sort of funeral rite. I should of done it anyways. Crows can represent intuition, endings, death and rebirth, or literal death.

    Below are the excerpts from the paranormal decade series involving all things vampire related including nightmares, nice dreams, and synchronicity. When it says certain vampire or dangerous young woman its usually Regina. I wasn't sure if they were around still and if I should mention them by name hence the indirect terms but I will just put it all out there.     

 

 Saturday April 25th, 2020
This was literally the day after the previous experience. I was able to fall asleep relatively easily around 6 in the afternoon. I woke up to entities in the room and did not burn sage again like I had the day before. Usually burning sage would buy me days without entity interference but not this time. Some were blurry and humanoid and others more cloudy and distorted. I fell back asleep and had some sort of bizarre "dream". The theme of it was war and escape but I do not remember the details very well. I was moving about ten feet over some sort of strange substance. It was kind of an off light to medium blue and resembled the sky somewhat. I dont know if I was floating or walking over it. I do recall seeing dark buildings behind me and maybe around me further in the distance. These wouldve been typical one to two story buildings that would be found in modern towns and cities. I want to say they resembled maybe apartments or small businesses. They didnt seem important in the dream.

 There were soldiers coming towards me. There uniforms looked something like either the French uniforms from the Napoleonic Wars or early in World War 1. They wore these hats that resembled the hats worn by the soldiers in The Wizard of Oz, and their faces were also green, maybe a blue green but I dont remember. They may of had mustaches. They seemed dead and reminded me of zombies, yet they were animated so they may of been under the control of something. I was evading them as I tried to reach a structure that resembled one of those Roman Arches. It was stationary just above the liquid like substance. I think they were guarding it and thats why they were trying to stop me. I wonder if it was a doorway or portal. I may of been with other people who were coming with me or just observing. Some of those people may of been Vampires, but I am not sure. I want to say they were just curious. I have had many dreams involving them before. Sometimes we speak and interact and other times they are hostile. While I was evading the soldiers I went into the substance. 

 It resembled water but I more or less levitated through it instead of swimming. I moved under the archway as I evaded the soldiers who followed me into the substance. I dont remember what happened next and I woke up to an entity in the closet that resembled a clown with white and blue paint. The closet door was half open and it appeared to be inside at an angle where I could see its head from the side view but not completely. It was definitely hostile. Clowns and jesters at least to some degree were based off of demonic type entities. Clowns do not behave like normal people and sometimes seem pretty demented. They are also a twisting or warping of the human form which can be dark. A lot of fads throughout time have done the same thing. Altering the normal human form. The last week I have seen 11:11, 11:12, 3:21, 1:17, 2:10, 4:10, 3:14, and 3:41 many times. Something is going on.

 

 Saturday May 23rd, 2020
I woke up Around 7 am. I had just been dreaming about something. I dont remember the details like the location or what was being spoken about but I was with a group of young women. I wont say who they were, that part was a little...disturbing, but I am pretty sure they were being compassionate and maybe trying to comfort me.

Monday September 6th, 2021 

I fell asleep sometime before sunrise and woke up some time after sunrise, right after some sort of attack. It started as some sort of dream. I dont remember the details very well but I was talking to some sort of holistic health person. It just so happens a holistic health center opened up nearby in real life. So in the dream this healer was with me in what may of been my old childhood home. The closet in my old bedroom was very dark and there was definitely a strong dark presence coming from there. The healer was shocked and I asked if there was anything she could do about it. 

The dream took a turn for the worst. I went into the bathroom and realized I was being attacked and could not control the dream. I started trying to wake myself up by yelling help or wake up but could not hear myself like usual. I heard evil childish laughter, either from a demonic or from small greys, and I was forced to look into the mirror where I saw my reflection looking back but bearing large vampire teeth. I do think the archons had dark plans for me. I woke up in a large library, maybe in a school, with some children who may of been around ten years old. I asked if they heard me yelling for help and they said yes. I asked why they didnt help wake me up. They didnt really say anything coming across as indifferent and numb. 

I think thats when I woke up. I had been a little upset recently considering the public largely going along with evil or just being indifferent to it. They seem like children and my negative feelings towards them may be wrong and may lead to a more negative path. The negative path may lead to something dark, symbolized by the vampire teeth. There are other possibilities as well. I had been watching a little alt media as well and to be honest current events seem pretty negative.  

Although this was a negative experience it was different than usual. I could not try and wake myself up and did not feel the usual dark presence when I awoke. I dont know why but it seemed like the darkness where ever this was, maybe the astral, had less connection with the physical plane. Although the outside world does look bad on my families favorite news channel or the alt media I have cutting those things out as much as possible and I have been feeling better. Does this difference have anything to do with the darks being cleared out?

 

 Tuesday September 14th, 2021 

I had a dream that I remember very little of but decided to post about anyways. The only two parts of the dream I remember are one where I was in some sort of special forces type training. I was using stealth and I dont remember if I was supposed to or not but I snuck up behind a soldier or mercenary in a ski mask and snapped their neck. They looked maybe slavic. I had been reading the first halo book the last few days and training was a theme in the book so it could of just been that. The other part I remember was standing with a small crowd. Their were a lot of shirtless young men and one kept trying to fight me. He looked a little like Leon Kennedy from resident evil. It seemed like he was trying to show off in front of everyone, especially a young woman who was sitting nearby. I got tired of it and started throwing  punches at him. I used to do mixed martial arts and I had decent hands. I danced around and made him look foolish. He stopped. I think the young woman was a certain vampire. I dont remember which of these dreams happened first.

 

Thursday July 7th, 2022 

I went to the grocery store around 8 to 8:15 pm. The song hells bells by acdc was playing on the radio on the way. I thought it was interesting for a number of reasons. I dont recall when this next memory came back to me but it may of been in early to mid June 2022. When I was in second to fourth grade which would of been 1997 to 2000 or so, something happened before Halloween that usually did not. My mother and I usually had my costume planned and bought early. Halloween is a big deal to a lot kids and I was no exception. This time we had to come up with something last minute. This was very unusual. I had no idea what I wanted to dress up as. She had the last minute idea for me to go as a vampire. Im not sure of what year but again 1997 to 2000 seems right. 

Looking back I agreed to it and just went along with it almost like it was supposed to happen. So I dressed up as the archetypal Christopher Plummer (or is it Christopher Lee?) vampire. Outside of a grim reaper costume one year that was the only year I went as a classic Halloween archetype like a ghost, frankensteins monster, vampire, or a werewolf. I would usually go as Batman or some hideous monster or something. I think my younger brother who was around one to two years old was a tiger. 

Im not sure why but instead of trick or treating in our neighborhood as usual, my mother drove us near my cousins old house and parked the car although I dont remember the details very well. This was also a bit unusual but not the only time we drove somewhere for Halloween. What I do remember is walking down a side street off of the main road Bayshore towards my cousins house. I think we were meeting with my aunt and cousins to trick or treat together. My mother may of parked at their home and they may not of been ready yet so we went by ourselves for a while and were heading back to meet up with them. Im not sure though. My mother was pushing my brother in a stroller in front of me. We were about to pass underneath a street light and in front of that was a dark street heading towards my cousins house. 

Two young women appeared from the dark street and passed under the light. The light shining down illuminating them is memorable but I cant recall what they were wearing. I want to say black and red dresses or something with white button up long sleeve shirts, possibly with jackets over them. Both of them were white maybe in their mid to late teens. The one in front had dark hair down to her shoulders. She was around the same height as my mother which is about 5'3 to 5'4. The one behind her was a little taller and had blonde hair although I do not recall the length other than it not being short. Both of them may of had their hair tied back or up in a bun.

My mother quietly and casually said hello. I think the young woman in front said hello. As we passed each other I looked them each in the eyes. The first girl with dark hair met my glance. I dont know if the second one did. After we passed each other the first girl told the other one something like "That cute little boy is dressed like a vampire". They continued walking in the direction we had come from and we continued on to my cousins. Once we met up with my cousins we went trick or treating. One of them was dressed up like the football player Dan Marino if I am remembering the right Halloween. 

The importance of this experience is that the two young women sound very familiar to two other specific and dangerous young women. It is very unlikely that these two specific young women I am thinking of were in Saint Lucie County, Florida of all places but at the very least it is an interesting synchronicity as I would eventually learn about them. Their appearance and little subtle things about their behavior sound so much like them and my gut tells me that it may of been them, but I am leaning towards synchronicity because it seems so implausible. 

After recalling this experience which I had seemed to of completely forgotten about I kept thinking of the bands acdc and also led zeppelin. One of the young women loved those bands. I kept hearing the Brian Johnson era acdc songs but being sang by Bon Scott instead who was acdc's first vocalist who died in the late 70s and was replaced by Johnson. I thought it was kind of funny but wasnt sure why I kept thinking about it. This particular young woman preferred Scott over Johnson. How do I know things about these women? Because back in early 2018 I read through a certain blog one time which heavily featured them and I somehow still remember almost all of it. 

Reading it was a bizarre experience, not even because of the subject matter but because it seemed personal and destined to happen in some way. Whether that was learning about them or interacting with them on that Halloween, in a past life, or in the future I am not sure. Interacting with these people could be very dangerous. Did the so called archon network have plans for me? Are those plans still on the table? Was it them or just another strange experience and synchronicity? The vampire costume and the change in location for Halloween really stand out to me. It seems my life was planned and staged and the occurrences were out of my control.

So back to July 7th. On the way to the grocery store hells bells played on the radio which seemed strange to me. While inside the store I saw an old neighbor. She was one of the younger friends I had in my posts about my academi, or blackwater, friend. I dont know if she recognized me but I didnt say anything. I saw one of those younger friends mothers, maybe in May or June and again I said nothing. On the way home a led zeppelin song was playing although I dont recall which one. I looked at hells bells lyrics days later as I kept hearing it in my mind. Taken out of context it sounds like the event experience that I had.  It was very powerful and like a storm and I wasnt sure if I would die or not. No one will be able to withstand it and fight it or what comes after. After the event happens in real life anyone with the darkside will be permanently stopped.

Im a rolling thunder, pouring rain

Im coming on like a hurricane

My lightnings flashing across the sky

Youre only young, but youre gonna die

I wont take no prisoners. wont spare no lives

Nobodys putting up a fight

Im gonna get you, Satan get you

Hells Bells

August 2022 

I have been playing the elder scrolls skyrim for the last month. There is something magical and positive about that game. It came out on 11/11/2011. I also see major archon references in it too. There are these structures built that give a non physical archon entity power in the physical. It looks like a bunch of eyes and darkness. It also gives knowledge and power in the form of black books to people who will serve it. It is in a realm with black liquid and other entities. 

One of these entities is called a lurker and has a fish like head, tentacles and black liquid. They show up when the archon structures are destroyed. I started seeing these in the game when CoBras update came out about the real lurker. 

I ordered some stuff from tachyonis. In the packaging were some newspapers in slovenian I believe. The first thing I saw was a page, slightly torn and crumpled, that showed the hollywood sidewalks with the cabal stars names. The page was titled Kult. On this page was an article about Marilyn Monroe with half a dozen pictures of her which made me think of a post a while back about Monroe.

https://2012portal.blogspot.com/2019/04/the-high-priestess.html

 

 Late morning of October 12th or 13th, 2022 

I am writing this down late on the Friday the 14th and I cannot recall when it happened but it was either Wednesday the 12th or Thursday the 13th. I am leaning towards the 13th because I think it was the same day I saw this post of CoBras blog. Before waking in the late morning I had a long dream. I dont remember the details very well but it was a friendly interaction with a certain vampire. She was kind and friendly and we got along well. We talked about things and visited different places. I dont remember any of the details but it was a good dream. Some people on CoBras blog were interpreting his post as a good thing, possibly about the chimera and archon network taking losses in the war between light and dark. Maybe my dream was a good omen or something.

 

Friday October 21st, 2022 

I played Skyrim in the early morning. On one of the dawnguard missions I had to seek out a moth priest. A vampire named Sarana showed up to help us which was strange because the dawnguard want to kill vampires or at least drive them out of skyrim. The vampire wanted to help me but I turned her down and did not trust her. I was actually very disgusted by her and the idea. I was thinking about the show stranger things. I walked inside my home and my mother was doing laundry. The load had 11 minutes left reminding me of the previous theme of 11 or El from stranger things and the repeating number synchronicities like 11:11. I wasnt going to walk my parents dogs but I decided to around 11 pm. We saw two Screech Owls on the walk. One was on some hanging power lines so it was fairly close to the road. The other was a bit higher up. They really stood out. I have heard owls in the distance at night for a while along with coyotes but I havent seen owls in a long time, probably months, so I think its significant. They can be a symbol of death and rebirth, change, seeing beyond deceit and masks, wisdom, and other things.

 

Saturday October 22nd, 2022 

In the early morning after midnight I played skyrim again. It was another dawnguard mission. It involved the vampire Sarana's family so I accepted her help this time. We crossed skyrim and entered her families castle. There was a portal underneath the castle which we used to enter into this disturbing realm to find her mother who had an elder scroll. Bonnie astrology had a general reading and what her reading said for my signs was trusting what someone says and giving them a chance. Also accepting their help and hearing them out and believing them as well as travel and relationship stuff. Vampires have been a bit of a theme for me lately and the gaming has been this way too. 

I have been borrowing some things of my younger brothers for a while and decided to buy them from him. He needed the money so it helped both of us. I was communicating with a targeted individual online and gave him some advice. It was on discord and they have this dumb leveling up feature. After my advice I leveled up to 11, which has been a reoccurring number for days ever since I decided to buy some products from tachyonis.

 

August  2023 

I havent been doing much with this digital journal for a while now. I have been trying to focus more on grounding, inner work, and physical daily activities like healthier eating and more exercising. I havent been dealing with as many things of the metaphysical nature. One thing that comes to mind is a memory that popped into my head earlier this year in either spring or early summer like June. I am not sure but I am leaning towards summer. This does occasionally happen. I will space out and recollect something. Its almost like watching a movie in my head. I will remember something during these and although memory is not perfect I believe mine are above average. My memories of the paranormal nature tend to be well above average. 

 

In this memory my older sister was around middle school age. She was a freshmen in highschool at the latest but I want to say middle school so around thirteen years of age. This would of placed me around three to four years old. The school was close by so she may of walked home. It wouldve been northport middle school or fort pierce central high school depending on her age. She came home from school with a young woman. I believe I remember her name but I am not one hundred percent sure and I am not going to include it. 

 

I remember my sister telling my mother that this young woman was from Europe and may of lived all over Europe. She was only here temporarily for some reason and while this does happen its not that common for someone to show up at a school and then disappear. She was around 5'4 in height and was white with dark hair around shoulder length. I dont remember how she was dressed but darker clothing comes to mind and possibly a dress. I was in my sisters room because I always liked to see who my siblings brought home. Her friend came in and sat down at the foot of the bed and looked at me. My sister or mother asked me to leave the room and I did. 

 

I include this story because she reminds me of someone. I wrote another memory on Thursday July 7th, 2022 not long after the memory had come back to me just as this one had. It was the one that took place on Halloween in the late 1990s when I was eight or nine or so. I was dressed like an archetypal vampire and passed by two young woman who commented on my costume. They remind me of two particular young women. This young woman who entered our home in the early 1990s when I was three to four strongly resembled her to the point that it may of been the same person. With all the other paranormal activity I have had why not? 

 

If it is true and she is who I think she is than my life experiences were far more scripted than I thought. We are on a path and things were far more controlled and rigged than we are led to believe. It is starting to really look like I was a prisoner within my own life by design. The archon network may of had some very dangerous people around me as a child and my family were unknowingly used in this. At the least it was a subtle clue for the future. If I am wrong about who these people were than it is another interesting synchronicity.

 

Tuesday August 15th, 2023 

I had an interesting dream sometime after sunrise. I dont recall all of the details but I do recall interacting with someone who I think was Marilyn Monroe and a certain vampire who may of been friends with her. It was nighttime and we were parked off of the side of the road which resembles an area near my home. There were no cars driving by. There was a streetlamp nearby and we were in a parked open top car and lounging in the back. Everything outside of the car and the street and grass under the light was pitch black. We were holding each other and she was pressing my head up to hers and also down to her chest. I distinctly remember holding her and seeing her silvery blonde hair up close. We spoke during all of this but I cannot recall what we said.

 

The vampire was sitting in the car too and I remember us all speaking but I dont remember what about. The only thing I really remember was compassion towards me from Monroe considering my situation. The way we spoke and held each other said a lot. I am basically alone and I am starting to think I was in an invisible archon network prison my entire life. I was never a big Marilyn Monroe fan or one of those guys that has a crush on her or has pictures of her or things like that although I did like that spy movie she was in. Why did I dream of her in this way? According to CoBra she was a high priestess. 

 

Tuesday June 18th, 2024 

I am writing this one down very late. I dont think I have ever posted this story. Overtime I have had repressed memories come back to me. It is like a movie playing in my head. While they play its like my eyes are a tv screen. When the movie plays its all I can see and experience but its not like I am paralyzed or something. It is surreal and they play very fast. I usually know to sit down ahead of time and then it starts. The two previous ones mentioned a while back about vampires are a good example. The young woman who entered our house when I was a child may of come back again shortly after the first time. My sister was probably still in middle school. The girl had a sweater and wool cap on and snuck in a ouja board but I am unsure if it was the same person. It looked like her but it could of been someone else. I recalled that one in early 2024.  

 

This next one came back to me in early 2024, maybe springtime, and is further confirmation of the previous ones. It is the same young woman who entered our house for sure. My sister was graduating from highschool in the late 1990s and hadnt seen this particular young woman since middle school because she basically vanished. She was in her ceramics class and was finishing up a bowl she made specifically for me. It has a white dragon eating its own tail, forming a circular shape. The back of the bowl has the chinese characters and also english for son of heaven. It has a positive look and feel to it unlike lots of dragon art or modern art in general especially related to mythology. 

 

I looked at the bowl earlier this year and thought of the chinese white dragon society. According to Cobra you can be a member of this and the order of the star and not even know it. Son of heaven reminded me of a lightworker starseed. I thought of the onvampires site with the story of the dragon necklace. It has a dragon eating its tail in front of a pentacle or upside down five pointed star backdrop. Definitely more dark from what it sounds like compared to the bowl. It was given to one of the main characters in the story by dark entities. 

 

He met a vampire who I am convinced is the same person my sister met. She owned the necklace at one point and it was key to them meeting in the story. The necklace made me think of the evil black dragon society. The onvampires site is a dark story too. The symbolism of the bowl and necklace is sort of yin and yang. So the memory came back to me first quarter 2024. While my sister was finishing the bowl the young woman she met in middle school came into the room. They said hello and the young woman looked at the bowl. I dont know if it was finished or not but I want to say it was and she may of complimented my sister on it. She told my sister congratulations on graduating and abruptly left. My sister said she looked like she hadnt aged a day and even commented on it to her before she left. How did she find out where my sister was? 

 

According to the onvampires site they do not age. I am fully convinced it was them. My belief is that a part of my isolation was either because of them or to protect myself from them. Most of them are gone and that is when people began learning more about them around 2018 and up. There is something to it. They would meddle with lightworkers missions and murder them. I am sure I will find out in detail what it was really all about.