Quick update
I have felt really off since August and especially since September and have been keeping to myself as usual. It seemed almost like depression. The young woman whom I have mentioned before on this blog has changed over time throughout this year. She is beautiful but has a sadness and hurt in her eyes which became more and more pronounced over time. It hurt me when I noticed it. I didnt see it as much before in her older content but maybe it was just well hidden. I wondered if the sadness in her eyes had something to do with me and my story and I have been feeling bad about that, especially if it was out of compassion and care for me. If she is reading this it was never my intention to hurt her. I am convinced she reads this blog and I wish she would communicate with me, outside of cryptic messages. We may be close to a breakthrough in this war and then we may finally meet face to face.
I tried to reverse my bad state in November with some success and have been dealing with some nagging health issues, also, with some success. I dont know when I will post next but it may be very shadowy. I think I will link to some music I have thought of recently.
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