Paranormal Decade Part 7

June 24th, 2022 

I felt great reading the update the night of the 23rd and then on the 24th the next day I felt drained and floored. I just laid down outside for a while instead of lifting weights. I walked afterwards and saw a rooster walking down the street as well as an owl perched on some power lines. I saw baby owls too. I kept thinking of the alice in chains song called rooster. Rooster is supposed to be a powerful and confident animal totem. The rooster ornaments on top of old houses pointed in the direction of storms. Owls see in the darkness. The rooster was killed by something a couple of days later. My mother saw all of the feathers. The next day they were all gone. It was strange and really stood out. I took it as a bad omen but I am unsure. I feel like I was meant to see it. 

I dont recall when this next part happened but it was maybe one or two days after the rooster was killed. Starting in the early to mid afternoon the power went out. It kept coming back on and then going out again. This happened maybe five times. It was dark and it happened again. I went out and walked and considered the symbolism of the rooster as a power animal and dying right before the power went out. It seemed like only our blocks power went out too. It usually never happens in the area I live in, even during hurricanes. 

I went back inside. My parents were in there room having a sort of heartfelt talk about something personal involving other family members. It seemed overall positive. It may not of happened had the power not went out. Then the power came back on and everything was fine. If I had to make sense of all this it is that whatever happens I will be fine.

Tuesday June 28th, 2022

I fell asleep sometime after sunrise. I had nothing to do so I wanted to sleep in. I had a series of dreams around 10 am. For at least a few months before this I had few dreams. The ones I had seemed important and I understood the meanings of them which I interpreted within the dreams aloud to myself in real time. I woke up and couldnt remember any details about the dreams at all. If I had to take something from it its that there is a meaning to dreams. So on this morning of the 28th I had a series of dreams. I am unsure of the order of the first two but here they are. 

I was with two high school students. One was named Lawrence and he was actually a student at my high school years ago. The other I am not sure about although it may of been someone named TJ, another student from my high school. Where ever we were it was nighttime. We were in a parking lot lit by white orange lights discussing some things. There were lots of students trying to park their cars or taking off in them. The parking lot was narrow and had sections that just dropped down into nothingness like it was setup that way as a trap. 

Some students were driving and accidentally running their cars into parked cars. These parked cars hit other cars which were pushed into the bottomless pits. The whole thing seemed strange and dysfunctional but it was normal to everyone else. I wanted no part of any of it but the other two did. I disagreed with Lawrence about something to do with the society and social interaction. He had gotten into trouble in real life and was definitely more sociable than I was. It may of been related to that. We were in a weird truck, like a convertible pickup but not a jeep, and he took off without knowing fully how to drive it. We were also heading for one of those bottomless pit sections of the parking lot. I didnt want to go anywhere but I told him to gently apply pressure to the brake and slow down. This reminds me of how society and the people in it seem sort of incomplete and thrown into situations they cant fully handle probably all by archon network design. 

The other of the two first dreams was about my younger brother, my mother, and myself shopping somewhere. There may of been more people with us like friends of my brothers but I dont recall. It was nighttime at a generic department store like walmart. My mother always had a problem with shopping and spending money. I think it was a form of escapism. She was also very sheltering and could be very passive aggressive and neglectful, especially with normal and important things. She would then shower me with praise and gifts at other times, much of which was worthless. The cluster b covert narcissist comes to mind. She did not and probably could not help with all of my childhood paranormal activity and some of it may of passed on to me by her and other family. All archon network designed. 

I had to stand up in a cart at some point out in the parking lot during the dream. I dont know why. I asked her for help holding the cart still so I could get back down and she refused, ignored me, and walked away. I got down and was angry. I believe I went looking for her and this may be when the next dream happened. I was inside of what looked like a section of the department store that started to morph into something else. There were teenagers of maybe high school age lined up through double doors and then the line wrapped around a dilapidated pillar and continued on into a narrow hallway. The place looked a little rundown. I believe I stopped looking for my mother at this point and went down the crowded narrow hallway. 

A group of the girls were picking on another one and it got violent. I grabbed one by the back of her hair and pulled her away. They kept fighting and I grabbed her again and slammed her face first into a wall a couple of times. She fell on the ground and the fight stopped. I think this may of happened again further down the hall but I am not sure. I ended up in a school like facility. There wasnt a lot of learning going on, just dysfunction and fighting, and people were angry at me for stopping the girls who were jumping someone. I had to go report it and also answer for what I did but they didnt really care. The whole place felt hostile and I planned to bring weapons in my backpack to protect myself. I seemed like any of them could turn at any time like the people in the matrix becoming agent smith. The rest of them just kept their heads down out of fear or didnt care about what was going on. 

The next dream was a hallway that led to wooden double doors. There was a man behind a desk that sat pretty high up, almost like the booth a judge sits in in a courtroom. Whoever was with me had a form that had to be filled out and turned in soon to the man in the booth and I had to help them. For some reason the deadline sped up and we had five minutes left. I got it filled out except for these four numbers. The paper on a poster board nearby that had the four numbers wasnt legible and the last number which was 5 almost looked like a backwards c. Instead of five minutes we only had 5 seconds and we missed it by a second like it was rigged against us and impossible.

The next dream started off better. I was outside in the daylight in what appeared to be another parking lot possibly at the same school like facility. The teachers or professors seemed better and the handful of students may of been too. A minority that cared about what was going on and wanted to learn about it and escape. I dont know if we were trying to leave in some of the cars or why we were there. There were sections with large reddish boulders sticking up in the parking lot, like the lot was built around them and there was also a section towards the back that was just a large red rock frame and boulders. I was near the back, between a boulder in the middle of the lot and the red rock section behind the lot. Then I heard a sniper shot and saw it clip the boulder in front of me. I lied down behind the red boulder. I felt like I was being targeted. I wanted to run to the back of the parking lot towards the collection of red rock and boulders and escape but I wanted to help the other people. 

I moved along the boulder in the other direction with this idea that the two professors and students were retrieving guns from the cars. The gun that came to mind was a galil which is like a high end AK used by the Israelis I believe. I wanted to get one and help. I peeked out and saw the professors near the trunk of a black car get shredded with gunfire. The boulder was hit by gunfire that almost hit me again. I ran back towards the red rocky area behind the parking lot and dove into a gap. The rocky slope moved down at an angle and I slid down five to ten feet and moved off to the side. There was a spot within all of the red rock that had a flat floor and low roof. At the moment I seemed safe and then I woke up breathing heavily and my legs were sweating. What I got from these dreams was that the situation was rigged from the start. Most of these people dont want the help and are a part of the control system. There is nothing I can do to help them anyways and I should worry about myself. 

Thursday July 7th, 2022 

I went to the grocery store around 8 to 8:15 pm. The song hells bells by acdc was playing on the way there. I thought it was interesting for a number of reasons. I dont recall when this next memory came back to me but it may of been in early to mid June 2022. When I was in second to fourth grade which would of been 1997 to 2000 or so, something happened before Halloween that usually did not. My mother and I usually had my costume planned and bought early. Halloween is a big deal to a lot kids and I was no exception. This time we had to come up with something last minute. This was very unusual. I had no idea what I wanted to dress up as. She had the last minute idea for me to go as a vampire. Im not sure of what year but again 1997 to 2000 seems right. 

Looking back I agreed to it and just went along with it almost like it was supposed to happen. So I dressed up as the archetypal Christopher Plummer (or is it Christopher Lee?) vampire. Outside of a grim reaper costume one year that was the only year I went as a classic Halloween archetype like a ghost, frankensteins monster, vampire, or a werewolf. I would usually go as Batman or some hideous monster or something. I think my younger brother who was around one to two years old was a tiger. 

Im not sure why but instead of trick or treating in our neighborhood as usual, my mother drove us near my cousins old house and parked the car although I dont remember the details very well. This was also a bit unusual but not the only time we drove somewhere for Halloween. What I do remember is walking down a side street off of the main road Bayshore towards my cousins house. I think we were meeting with my aunt and cousins to trick or treat together. My mother may of parked at their home and they may not of been ready yet so we went by ourselves for a while and were heading back to meet up with them. Im not sure though. My mother was pushing my brother in a stroller in front of me. We were about to pass underneath a street light and in front of that was a dark street heading towards my cousins house. 

Two young women appeared from the dark street and passed under the light. The light shining down illuminating them is memorable but I cant recall what they were wearing. I want to say black and red dresses or something with white button up long sleeve shirts, possibly with jackets over them. Both of them were white maybe in their mid to late teens. The one in front had dark hair down to her shoulders. She was around the same height as my mother which is about 5'3 to 5'4. The one behind her was a little taller and had blonde hair although I do not recall the length other than it not being short. Both of them may of had their hair tied back or up in a bun.

My mother quietly and casually said hello. I think the young woman in front said hello. As we passed each other I looked them each in the eyes. The first girl with dark hair met my glance. I dont know if the second one did. After we passed each other the first girl told the other one something like "That cute little boy is dressed like a vampire". They continued walking in the direction we had come from and we continued on to my cousins. Once we met up with my cousins we went trick or treating. One of them was dressed up like the football player Dan Marino if I am remembering the right Halloween. 

The importance of this experience is that the two young women sound very familiar to two other specific and dangerous young women. It is very unlikely that these two specific young women I am thinking of were in Saint Lucie County, Florida of all places but at the very least it is an interesting synchronicity as I would eventually learn about them. Their appearance and little subtle things about their behavior sound so much like them and my gut tells me that it may of been them, but I am leaning towards synchronicity because it seems so implausible. 

After recalling this experience which I had seemed to of completely forgotten about I kept thinking of the bands acdc and also led zeppelin. One of the young women loved those bands. I kept hearing the Brian Johnson era acdc songs but being sang by Bon Scott instead who was acdc's first vocalist who died in the late 70s and was replaced by Johnson. I thought it was kind of funny but wasnt sure why I kept thinking about it. This particular young woman preferred Scott over Johnson. How do I know things about these women? Because back in early 2018 I read through a certain blog one time which heavily featured them and I somehow still remember almost all of it. 

Reading it was a bizarre experience, not even because of the subject matter but because it seemed personal and destined to happen in some way. Whether that was learning about them or interacting with them on that Halloween, in a past life, or in the future I am not sure. Interacting with these people could be very dangerous. Did the so called archon network have plans for me? Are those plans still on the table? Was it them or just another strange experience and synchronicity? The vampire costume and the change in location for Halloween really stand out to me. It seems my life was planned and staged and the occurrences were out of my control.

So back to July 7th. On the way to the grocery store hells bells played on the radio which seemed strange to me. While inside the store I saw an old neighbor. She was one of the younger friends I had in my posts about my academi, or blackwater, friend. I dont know if she recognized me but I didnt say anything. I saw one of those younger friends mothers, maybe in May or June and again I said nothing. On the way home a led zeppelin song was playing although I dont recall which one. I looked at hells bells lyrics days later as I kept hearing it in my mind. Taken out of context it sounds like the event experience that I had.  It was very powerful and like a storm and I wasnt sure if I would die or not. No one will be able to withstand it and fight it or what comes after. After the event happens in real life anyone with the darkside will be permanently stopped.

Im a rolling thunder, pouring rain

Im coming on like a hurricane

My lightnings flashing across the sky

Youre only young, but youre gonna die

I wont take no prisoners. wont spare no lives

Nobodys putting up a fight

Im gonna get you, Satan get you

Hells Bells 

Thurs July 14th, 2022 

Im going to sum up what I experienced recently. I got fairly sick for two to three days. As it started to subside by the second day I felt more calm and tuned in with nature, nature being outside in the yard or walking down the street in my rural suburb. I generally felt happy being outside and looking at the sky and clouds, grass, trees, animals. I usually dont mind being outside and seeing signs in the wild life and weather but this is better than that. I dont know if the feeling will subside. Here is more detail of what started on the 14th. 

I went to the grocery store in the afternoon with a family member. They wanted to go to a dollar store right before on the way and I went in too. I got some super glue and a few energy drinks there. The place had this kind of nasty feeling in the same way that a store like wal mart will have but worse. These stores are probably energetically very bad. The people seemed energetically off too. We also went to the bank and I picked up some money. I bought some food at the grocery store and looking back it felt energetically more clean and positive than the dollar store. The next day on Friday July 15th I woke up and ate breakfast and drank one of the dollar store energy drinks with it. I started feeling kind of off immediately. I went about my day and by the night I felt kind of sick and very off and my head was really cloudy. I had a bad headache and was freezing around midnight. I started getting the shivers and had a pretty bad fever. 

I knew I would be out for a while so I actually exercised my legs a bit and went for a half mile walk around 8 or 9 pm. It felt difficult just moving but the summer heat felt good. I got a hot shower to help with the shivering. I was delirious. While standing in the shower I remembered telling someone about the astral rapes I have had and I started uncontrollably sobbing about it. We usually have lots of defenses up to things like crying and it all came down, probably due to the fever and illness. I sat down under the hot water and just let the crying happen. It felt kind of good afterwards. I washed myself and went to bed. I had trouble sleeping and I started sweating a lot when I did doze off. I figured this was good because the last time I felt feverish like this was November 2019 and the more I slept and sweat the better I felt.

I slept in on Saturday the 16th, woke up, changed my bedding, drank some water, and then fell back asleep. I woke up in the afternoon and drank some orange juice and went for another half mile walk. I had an aversion to noise, electric lights, tv screens, etc which is normal for me when I have been really ill before but the next part was different. I seemed more tuned in with what was going on outside as well as with my own thoughts. I will usually spend time outside on purpose to get away from electronics and exercise and its fine but this was different. I felt happy outside even though I was ill and fatigued which I dont think I ever experienced while ill. The warm weather seemed to help as well. 

I walked again around 1 am and laid some old cushions on the back patio floor. I laid down and had a couple of towels as blankets. The warm summer night felt good and it was pretty quiet out. There was a lack of mosquitos although it had been raining. I was completely content and felt just fine there for a while listening to the frogs, distant traffic and my thoughts...until the moon started rising and shining in the patio right into my eyes. I rolled over and faced the wall and fell asleep. When I woke up I was covered in sweat and the moon was over the patio. I rolled over on my back and fell asleep again, woke once more, rolled over to where I could see the night sky and horizon over the garage behind the house and fell back asleep. When I woke up it was early dawn. 

I felt so exhausted and weak that I just laid there and kept passing out and waking up. Sunrise came but it was blocked by lots of cloud cover. I kept waking up and it would be brighter and brighter but the clouds blocked the sun. I eventually got up and through Sunday I ate a couple of eggs, drank  orange juice, and lied around in the patio unable to move for a while. It felt right being outside and not in front of screens. After another walk or two I tried sleeping on the patio again but it didnt feel right. I slept in my room and continued to sweat out whatever this was. Monday was noticeably better and by Tuesday my appetite starting coming back and the fatigue was less. I still felt happy to be outside in the daylight and I dont know if this will continue or gradually go away but I wouldnt mind. I felt happy walking the dogs at night on Tuesday and Wednesday. Normally its a chore that I dont mind doing and I know the dogs like it. I even exercised my legs again. Wednesday I felt a bit better and my appetite came back a little more. 

As far as what caused this illness it couldve been a flu I picked up out in public that went away fairly quickly. The energy in the dollar store as well as that horrible energy drink couldve hit my immune system hard at the same time. This couldve been completely energy related and may not of been a flu at all. I may of been getting this illness out of the way early before everyone else. This is what I think happened to me in November 2019 right before 2020. So I dont know what this current one was but I used lots of sleep, willpower, nature, thoughts, and orange juice and hard boiled eggs and the worst of it was over in the first two to three days. 

Im not sure how I left this next part out but for the last few days or so I have been seeing strange streaks of light in the night sky while walking the dogs. They dont look like a streak from a meteor shower and they move a bit more slowly but faster than an aircraft. I saw maybe a few a night over three to four nights. Are they UFOs? To be cont...

August 2022 

I have been playing the elder scrolls skyrim for the last month. There is something magical and positive about that game. It came out on 11/11/2011. I also see major archon references in it too. There are these structures built that give a non physical archon entity power in the physical. It looks like a bunch of eyes and darkness. It also gives knowledge and power in the form of black books to people who will serve it. It is in a realm with black liquid and other entities. 

One of these entities is called a lurker and has a fish like head, tentacles and black liquid. They show up when the archon structures are destroyed. I started seeing these in the game when CoBras update came out about the real lurker. 

I ordered some stuff from tachyonis. In the packaging were some newspapers in slovenian I believe. The first thing I saw was a page, slightly torn and crumpled, that showed the hollywood sidewalks with the cabal stars names. The page was titled Kult. On this page was an article about Marilyn Monroe with half a dozen pictures of her which made me think of a post a while back about Monroe.

https://2012portal.blogspot.com/2019/04/the-high-priestess.html

Late morning of October 12th or 13th, 2022 

I am writing this down late on the Friday the 14th and I cannot recall when it happened but it was either Wednesday the 12th or Thursday the 13th. I am leaning towards the 13th because I think it was the same day I saw this post of CoBras blog. Before waking in the late morning I had a long dream. I dont remember the details very well but it was a friendly interaction with a certain vampire. She was kind and friendly and we got along well. We talked about things and visited different places. I dont remember any of the details but it was a good dream. Some people on CoBras blog were interpreting his post as a good thing, possibly about the chimera and archon network taking losses in the war between light and dark. Maybe my dream was a good omen or something.

Wednesday October 19th, 2022 

I am writing this down late. It happened on either Monday October 17th or Tuesday the 18th. I am leaning towards the 18th but it doesnt matter. I had a Jones soda with my breakfast. I only eat once a day so I have some good food and Jones has cane sugar instead of corn syrup so its not as bad. They have messages under the cap and the message was 'Turn it up to 11'. It is a bit of a joke like if something was on a scale of 1 to 10 and it says 11, which is higher than the highest something is supposed to go. I interpreted it differently. I saw the 11:11 synchronicity in it like my internal alarm clock experience or the frequently seen 11:11 that people see as they start to wake up. I have seen 11:11 and certain other numbers many times. 

I have also been watching the show stranger things. One of the main characters, named L or El I believe, was born with strange abilities and was a part of government programs which appeared to be mind control. She was also held hostage by them. Her number in the programs was 11 and it really stood out to me in the show. Another character has abilities and a bad interaction with an archon network like demonic interdimensional intelligence. Both characters have trouble with normal day to day life as I have. I believe I have been an archon network hostage and prisoner and possibly more. I have experienced similar things to both characters. 

Thursday October 20th, 2022 

My family has killed thousands of flies at our house the last two days. Its like a mini plague. The temperature dropped the morning of the 18th which was great but an enormous amount of flies tried to get into our house. They were probably trying to get in from the wind and because its a bit more warm inside of our house. Why did the neighbors not have this problem? Their houses get more coverage from the wind from trees and fences. As far as I know it was mostly our house that dealt with this. They were covering some of the screens to the patio and house windows. My father used spray to kill many outside and we probably swatted a hundred or more in the house just on the 18th alone. They couldnt fly fast because of the cold. Its not unheard of but its strange weather for south Florida in October. No matter how chilly it gets it is not common to have to spray a thousand or more flies on the outside of the house. There was a bad energy accompanying all of this too.

On the 19th I was moving some furniture around and I laid down on the floor to get a different perspective of the room because I am strange and noticed under one piece of furniture it had an ink stamp that said EL. I immediately thought of the character El in the show stranger things which I have been watching. I am on season 4 and she is having a rough time in the public school system. I had some bad times in school myself.  

That same night I let my parents dogs out and went back inside. The stove clock was at 11:11 a number I see often. I was in the process of ordering products from tachyonis and I took this as I am on the right path. After midnight which was technically the 20th I went to get my laundry from the washing machine into the dryer and noticed the stove clock was at 1:17 am, a number I see often. Later my parents dog was having a nightmare and I was about to go get the laundry from the dryer. The clock said 1:43. I woke up and petted the dog to comfort him. I got up and passed the clock. 1:44, another number I often see. 

Friday October 21st, 2022 

I played Skyrim in the early morning. On one of the dawnguard missions I had to seek out a moth priest. A vampire named Sarana showed up to help us which was strange because the dawnguard want to kill vampires or at least drive them out of skyrim. The vampire wanted to help me but I turned her down and did not trust her. I was actually very disgusted by her and the idea. I was thinking about the show stranger things. I walked inside my home and my mother was doing laundry. The load had 11 minutes left reminding me of the previous theme of 11 or El from stranger things and the repeating number synchronicities like 11:11. I wasnt going to walk my parents dogs but I decided to around 11 pm. We saw two Screech Owls on the walk. One was on some hanging power lines so it was fairly close to the road. The other was a bit higher up. They really stood out. I have heard owls in the distance at night for a while along with coyotes but I havent seen owls in a long time, probably months, so I think its significant. They can be a symbol of death and rebirth, change, seeing beyond deceit and masks, wisdom, and other things. 

Saturday October 22nd, 2022 

In the early morning after midnight I played skyrim again. It was another dawnguard mission. It involved the vampire Sarana's family so I accepted her help this time. We crossed skyrim and entered her families castle. There was a portal underneath the castle which we used to enter into this disturbing realm to find her mother who had an elder scroll. Bonnie astrology had a general reading and what her reading said for my signs was trusting what someone says and giving them a chance. Also accepting their help and hearing them out and believing them as well as travel and relationship stuff. Vampires have been a bit of a theme for me lately and the gaming has been this way too. 

I have been borrowing some things of my younger brothers for a while and decided to buy them from him. He needed the money so it helped both of us. I was communicating with a targeted individual online and gave him some advice. It was on discord and they have this dumb leveling up feature. After my advice I leveled up to 11, which has been a reoccurring number for days ever since I decided to buy some products from tachyonis. 

Saturday October 29th, 2022 

I finished watching Stranger Things. It has a lot of predictive programming. A demonic realm with entities that have a hive mind, government black projects run by the US and soviet union including mk ultra type projects, remote viewing, spider entities with mind control abilities, and many others. One person, 001, involved in the projects may not even have a human soul like some of the cabal people. He is a psychopath in human form and in the demonic realm a powerful demon. He uses peoples traumas against them as a weapon and uses mind control to manipulate and guilt trip them. This is a main way the archon network enters into and controls people outside of etheric implants is through peoples traumas. The plot of course makes him a somewhat sympathetic character, at least in his childhood, but his monologue in episode 7 is loaded with predictive programming and odd references to the chimera and archon network running the world as well as eugenics. 

Like other fiction they make an argument that humans are a plague and modern life is fake but they leave out that it was created that way by the archon network. Then the characters representing the archon network portray themselves as superior to humans and try to reinforce that humans deserve it. Agent smiths interrogation or morpheus in the matrix is similar. Read 001s monologue for yourself.  

"Like you, I didn't fit in with the other children. Something was wrong with me.  All the teachers and the doctors said I was…"Broken," they said. My parents  thought a change of scenery, a fresh start in Hawkins, might just cure me. It was absurd. As if the world would be any different here. But then… to my surprise, our new home provided a discovery. And a newfound sense of purpose. I found a nest of black widows living inside a vent.  Most people fear spiders. They detest them. And yet, I found them endlessly fascinating. More than that, I found a great comfort in them. A kinship. 

Like me, they are solitary creatures. And deeply misunderstood. They are gods of our world. The most important of all predators. They immobilize and feed on the weak,  bringing balance and order to an unstable ecosystem. But the human world was disrupting this harmony. You see,  humans are a unique type of pest, multiplying and poisoning our world, all while enforcing a structure of their own. A deeply unnatural structure. Where others saw order, I saw a straitjacket. A cruel, oppressive world dictated by made-up rules. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades. Each life a faded, lesser copy of the one before. Wake up, eat, work, sleep, reproduce, and die. Everyone is just waiting. Waiting for it all to be over. All while performing in a silly, terrible play, day after day. 

I could not do that. I could not close off my mind and join in the madness. I could not pretend. And I realized I didn't have to. I could make my own rules. I could restore balance to a broken world. A predator…but for good. As I practiced, I realized I could do more than I possibly imagined. I could reach into others, into their minds, their memories. I became an explorer. I saw my parents as they truly were. To the world, they presented themselves as good, normal people. But like everything else in this world, it was all a lie. A terrible lie. They had done things, Eleven. Such awful things. I showed them who they really were. I held up a mirror. My naive father believed it was a demon cursing them for their sins. But my mother somehow knew.  Knew it was I who was holding up that mirror," 

Friday November 4th, 2022 

I am going to type some things out that happened days ago and for various reasons were not typed out before. I am unsure of the date of this story. I think it was Monday October 31st, 2022. On and off through October I saw interesting lights in the sky as well as meteorites coming close to the ground. The objects in the sky looked too big to be falling meteorites. They were too fast to be aircraft and too slow to be a streak of light in a meteor shower. They would appear and move across the sky and disappear. This probably happened around half a dozen times throughout October. I have seen that many in the last six years or so which is why I find it interesting that the number of sightings increased a lot recently. I saw at least a few white meteorites fall as well as an aquamarine one within the same time frame. 

On this particular night of the 31st I walked my parents younger dog. We reached a certain main road and turned back towards home. Not far from this spot up on the power lines watching was a barren owl. I hadnt had owl sightings for months before October 2022. We got home and I walked the older dog next. We reached the same main road eventually and turned back. When we reached the same spot as when I had seen the owl before with the younger dog I saw, up in the skyline above a neighbors palm tree, a bright white orb dropped down and disappeared behind the palm tree. It was pretty far away but from my perspective on the ground it looked like it was hiding behind the tree. Like the ones before it moved too fast to be the lights from an aircraft but too slow to be a streak of light from a meteor shower. 

This was around the same time I bought some products from tachyonis and days later I also bought a violet ray device. Tachyonis has tachyonized stones, crystals, and jewelery and the violet ray machine is a healing machine that uses a safe electric current for healing purposes. I woke up the day after ordering the violet ray and my laptop computer would not sync up with the internet. My families computer had internet but every time we tried to check emails relating to the purchases the tabs would crash. I had to get an old laptop out in a different spot and it did work but it reminded me of things in the past. 

Every time I would take part in a mass meditation the internet would go out. We had to have people come out and fix it. The business line would go out and someone would have to fix it and they would mess up something else in the process. My fathers direct tv would be screwed up and again people would come out and try and fix it. Sometimes they couldnt find anything wrong and it would take a while to fix. It happened numerous times and it was always frustrating. While it happened earlier it really started 2013 to 2014 to the present day. The 2013 - 2014 timeframe is when I began taking part in mass meditations. When I started posting comments to CoBras portal blog in 2018 I received attacks. When I made my own blog the same year I received very personal attacks. Certain posts led to certain very personal attacks which I detailed in the past. The archon network intends to keep people isolated and under control. It doesnt want lightworker types happy with good social networks. The meditations, blogging, and other things are steps towards happiness and good social networks. 

I dont know what led to the internet problems this time but I was planning on spending less time on the internet anyways and I took it as a good thing even if it was an attack of some kind. On Friday night which is November 4th and the night I am typing this, one of my products arrived. I worked out, walked my parents dogs, and did laundry. I got on my laptop and it synced to the internet this time no problem. It seemed like it was supposed to happen this way for some reason. I saw the usual number synchs in the days leading to the fourth like 11:11, 12:12, 1:44, 1:17, etc. 

Months ago my mother went to Texas to visit my brother. He dug up these huge citrine crystals. He had some tiny fragments and some pocket stone sized ones as well from the dig. My mother brought them back with her in a small bag and gave them to me. I put them in a jar which I buried for a couple of weeks. I then left them in the sun for an hour. I used the small ones in some 3D art and put the biggest one in a necklace pouch. I went to sleep in the early morning on the fourth with my citrine necklace and cintamani necklace. Before waking I had a strong and vivid dream although I had trouble remembering the details upon waking. 

I remember meeting someone who I had known years ago in my old neighborhood. We were not romantically involved but I did feel a sort of connection with her for some reason. We saw eye to eye on a lot of things and seemed to click. We may of had past life interaction. We may even be from the same soul group or soul family. I dont know. She moved away and I havent seen her since. It did bother me. Our interaction in the dream was friendly and we seemed happy to see each other. Whatever the reason for this dream it was a positive experience. I had worn the citrine for the first time on the fourth. Citrine happens to be a November stone and can be related to luck, fortune, healing, love, happiness, and attracting desires. 

I have been alone and isolated for some time. In many ways for my entire life. When something positive changes in my life my dreams become more vivid temporarily. They usually involve a positive interaction with women. Women is one of the main areas the archon network have attacked me and in many ways the male female interaction was weaponized against me. It seems human interaction was in general but as a straight male, women was a particularly effective weapon. 

I went to the grocery store and on the way out it started raining. I threw something in the garbage can. A young woman was getting off work at the same time and had to stop and talk to someone. Because of this we entered the parking lot at the same time. As I walked to my truck she was around five feet behind me the whole way. There was a half rainbow in the sky. The rain began to die down. She was parked right next to me and her hands were full. I asked if she needed help and opened her car door for her. She said thank you and it stopped raining. It went along with the theme of women and desires. 

Sunday November 5th, 2022 

Its around 1 am now. Ever since around 2019 I have been interested in Catholic Saints, especially Padre Pio and Saint Bernadette Soubirous. I read a couple of books about them on and off over the next few years and more recently compilation books about many saints. I noticed similarities to the point of wondering if I was Pio or Bernadette reincarnated, although I am still on the fence about it. Lightworkers probably lived lives as common people that no one ever heard of and had to hold the light so to speak within the archon network which is no small feat and these numerous important people mixed in with the masses were not recorded in the history books. They were not rich or famous but were still very important. There is also the possibility of many lightworkers being important supporting figures to some famous historical figures who were lightworkers. 

At the very least I understand some of the hardships and trials Pio,  Bernadette, and others went through. My family is very Catholic on my mothers side. My mother visited my aunt and she came back with a little Padre Pio figure. It was a likeness of him when he was a bit older with graying hair. I thought it was an interesting synchronicity and I eventually put it in my bedroom when I switched rooms out. It was placed on my bookshelf next to a figure of Snake from Metal Gear Solid 3 and the aging clone Snake from Metal Gear Solid 4. Original Snake and new Snake. On this shelf is also a brass deer as well as any feathers I find outside. When I found new feathers the old were switched out. It just seemed natural for some reason to do this. I also had a small white bowl of tiny green peridot gems. 

My younger brother went through a phase where he would check out what people were putting to the road before garbage day. He found some decent paintings, furniture, knives, and other things. He also brought home a hand carved wood figure of a priest who I couldnt make out because of the caricatured art style. It seemed a bit faded with some little scratches and blemishes but it was also getting old. It all seemed like a waste of time and garage space but this October we cleaned out the garage and I took a piece of furniture and a painting for my room. I remember an old pewter chalice from my childhood. We used to joke that it was the cup from the last supper because it looked so old. I found it in the garage and cleaned it up and brought it into my room as well.

The priest figure was going to be thrown out but at the last minute I decided to keep it. I looked at the back of the figure stand and noticed writing which read 'Anzueta 86' which was probably the artists name and date it was made as well as the name of the priest 'San Francisco De Asis'. Thats when it hit me. It wasnt just some random junk to be thrown in the trash. It came to me for a reason. It was Saint Francis of Asisi. I looked it up to be sure. 

According to CoBra of Portal 2012 Saint Francis and Padre Pio were one and the same but in different lifetimes. Pio was even called the second Saint Francis by believers. The snake figures were of the older 1960s cold war snake when he was young and the other figure was the younger clone of him decades later who was flawed and had rapid aging with gray hair. The much older and weathered wooden Francis figure looked like a younger man with brown hair and beard and the later incarnation of him represented by the plastic Pio figure which was more detailed and new but he was getting older with graying hair. It reminds me of the saying what is old is new and what is new is old. Snake was a multigenerational war fighter and lightworkers like Francis and Pio have been a part of a multi lifetime war against evil. Do I have a connection with Francis and Pio? 

Sunday November 6th, 2022 

I woke up and made breakfast and watched the movie Elysium. It takes place around 2150 AD. The elites live in a large man made habitat orbiting the earth called Elysium. It looks like the rings from Halo with Earth like land, weather, and atmosphere on the inside of the rings. They have high technology as well. Earth is in bad shape and the people lack most of the high technology. The movie ends with the high technology being sent to earth to help them. 

My mother informed me that my sister had an interesting dream the night before. She remembers walking through what appeared to be Disneyland. It looked devastated like a tornado destroyed it. There were people around  cleaning up and going through debris. I didnt ask her if they were wearing uniforms or not. The clouds started moving and forming into a large shape of some kind although she didnt explain it very well. I want to say it was an oval shape on its side but the bottom was sort of flat. It had some colors but I think it was hard for her to remember. The clouds began to part in the center as a figure walked through. It was a western representation of Jesus. 

My sister cried and she felt some fear but then it went away when she felt this immense love from him. He wasnt being angry or scary but told her without saying anything that things would get tough and to stock up on food and necessities. He didnt say it but she felt it almost as if it was telepathy. He seemed loving and caring. She has a Christian background and has been getting into collecting and selling quartz crystals and different types of stones lately. One of my earliest memories is looking at her Amethyst crystals which is one of my main stones for my birth signs as well as my other astrology placements. She usually doesnt remember much as far as dreams so this one stood out. 

These same ideas are prevalent in the alt media in many forms. Things get rocky and uncertain for a while but we arent alone while going through it and we can get through it and be fine. Disneyland is interesting because of the Disney families cabal connections, the cabal sacrifices involved in the film and music industries, as well as sexual subliminal messages in childrens movies. Disney and Universal studios are amusement parks. They entertain and distract the masses. They can be fun but are also fake. The park was destroyed and things got real in the dream. The show was over and things took a real and spiritual nature. My younger brother had a Disney related dream when he was a child that I wrote down somewhere. The Disney characters were real and very evil and were killing people in Disney castle. 

Monday November 7th, 2022 

At the turn of midnight on Sunday the 6th I was walking my parents younger dog for his second walk. On our way back home I heard owl hooting. The dog knows the sound and the word owl so I asked him if he heard the owl. He responded but in a very subtle way which was him starting to turn his head towards me but keeping focused on the sound. He is a good tracker and hunting dog. We followed the sound to a neighbors yard. I shined my flashlight into some trees one by one looking for it. As I would search each tree the sound would get closer and closer. It sounded a bit like someone saying 'Who!'. I wasnt sure if it was moving around but I got to where I thought it was and heard more hooting in the next tree. We got to the next cluster of trees and heard more hooting followed by a rush of air and wings flapping overhead. In the moonlight I saw the owl with a good three foot wingspan, maybe more, flying over the cow pasture on the other side of the road. It was in the previous cluster. Another owl took off from the nearby cluster of trees and followed. I watched it fly right overhead. So did the dog.  There were two owls which threw me off and made it difficult to find the right tree. 

I went to sleep eventually. I woke up hours later and made breakfast and decided on watching the first half of the movie Gladiator while eating without giving it much thought. One part stood out to me for some reason. 

Maximus: Three weeks from now, I will be harvesting my crops. Imagine where you will be, and it will be so. Hold the line! Stay with me! If you find yourself alone, riding in the green fields with the sun on your face, do not be troubled. For you are in Elysium, and you're already dead! Brothers, what we do in life... echoes in eternity. 

Elysium? Where have I heard that word before? 

Tuesday November 8th, 2022 

In the early morning I played a mission in The Elder Scrolls Skyrim. I knew I had to kill the most powerful dragon named Alduin. The previous day I finished a mission where I trapped a dragon and made a deal with it to take me to a certain mountain to find Alduin. There I found old ruins and a portal to the afterlife where Alduin was hiding out. I wasnt expecting to end up in Skyrims afterlife called Savngarde in this mission. It seems based on the real world Norse version of the afterlife Asgardd or the Roman afterlife Elysium. I had a Jones soda with my breakfast and the message under the cap was 'Acts of love live beyond the grave'. Reminds me a bit of the gladiator quote 'what we do in life... echoes in eternity'. While eating breakfast I finished Gladiator. Maximus died and found himself in Elysium with his wife and son. 

Wednesday November 9th, 2022 

The previous afternoon and night I was helping my father make garden rows. Its bordering on a small farm. The dirt rows stand over half a foot high and a couple of feet wide. There are several or so along with around a hundred pineapple plants and some fruit trees as well. It was a pain but its done and they are good enough to make it through the current tropical storm / hurricane Nicole. I got up today and helped clean up the yard and get things stored before the storm arrives here in St. Lucie County which will probably get a direct hit. Afterwards I cooked my usual meal. I had a Jones Soda with it. The message under the cap was 'The sun will rise after the storm'. 

Thursday November 17th, 2022 

I ordered some art online for my room on the night of the 16th. I had been looking at things and couldnt settle on what I wanted but I felt compelled to go ahead with it and pick something. It seemed like something I am supposed to do. The last few nights I would try to listen to youtube videos and my internet would go out. I felt like there was something else I was supposed to be doing and I was being guided towards it. I rearranged and cleaned parts of my room. Places where I had totems, stones, crystals, and tachyonis devices felt off so they were changed and the room actually felt much better. The stones and crystals were also cleared in the sun recently although I dont remember the exact date. 

I ordered some things from tachyonis in late October and was hoping they would show up quickly. Two things did but the rest did not which had me guessing when they would show up. On the 16th the weather cooled down a bit which was nice. On the 17th it cooled a bit more and the mail came early and I thought to myself Im sure my stuff wasnt delivered but thats fine. I will just be patient and they will show up when they do. I was figuring late November or early December. I had completely stopped worrying about it. I went and got the mail and the stuff was in a large envelope in the mailbox. I felt joy walking back towards the house on the gravel driveway which I usually dont feel. I try to stay level and genuine to avoid disappointment and frustration. I felt very happy this time though.

Earlier that day when I woke up and made breakfast I felt off. I had no appetite and couldnt focus on anything and had the feeling of being watched, stalked, hated, and attacked. Old wounds were being targeted and triggered. I put on my old cintamani stone and started to feel better. After trying out my new stuff I feel an improvement and hope its here to stay. I worked out and walked my parents dogs one at a time. It was a little chilly out and it felt great. I like chilly weather. I had my sapphire and amythest on me too. I felt more calm and less watched and attacked and started to feel what I want to call serenity mixed with entities trying to do their thing.

On the last walk I was at the point where I reach a main road and turn around to head back home. Up in the sky was a streak of white. It was a white spherical object and it appeared and dropped at an angle. It wasnt a streak of white light from a meteor shower and it was a bit bigger anyways. It was also a bit slower too. It was too fast to be an aircraft though. I have seen things like this throughout October and now at least a few in November along with white and aquamarine meteorites falling near the ground. I believe that nothing in this November 17th post was coincidence and we are receiving signs and guidance. 

Friday November 18th, 2022 

Its in the early morning and I just watched a Bernhard Gunther video about the awakening process. He ended with this quote:

"The truth of the matter is that most people who say they want awakening don’t actually “want to awaken". They want their version of awakening. What they actually want is to be really happy in their dream state. And that’s okay, if that’s as far as they’ve evolved.
But the real, sincere impulse toward enlightenment is something that goes far beyond the desire to make our dream state better. It is an impulse that is willing to subject itself to whatever is needed in order to wake up. The authentic impulse toward enlightenment is that internal prayer asking for whatever it is that will bring us to a full awakening, no matter whether it turns out to be wonderful or terrible. It is an impulse that puts no conditions on what we have to go through.

This authentic impulse can be a bit frightening, because when you feel it, you know it is real. When you have let go of all conditions - when you have let go of how you want your own awakening to be and what you want the journey to be like - you have let go of your illusion of control.

Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It's seeing through the facade of pretence. It's the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.

In my experience, everyone will say they want to discover the Truth, right up until they realize that the Truth will rob them of their deepest held ideas, beliefs, hopes, and dreams. The freedom of enlightenment means much more than the experience of love and peace. It means discovering a Truth that will turn your view of self and life upside-down. For one who is truly ready, this will be unimaginably liberating. But for one who is still clinging in any way, this will be extremely challenging indeed. How does one know if they are ready? One is ready when they are willing to be absolutely consumed, when they are willing to be fuel for a fire without end."
- Adyashanti

Friday November 25th, 2022 

A few days ago on the 21st or 22nd I went to the grocery store at night. It had been raining quite a bit for a week or so. On my way back home the song November Rain came on the radio which I thought was funny. Its one of the few Guns and Roses songs I kind of like and we had cold November rain for a while. I saw another UFO around this time and didnt right the exact time down. I have seen so many lately that I barely took note of it. 

Friday December 9th, 2022 

I have been trying new things for shadow healing and clearing since November. I think it is working. The few days before December 9th I had trouble sleeping. Not for any particular reasons but there was a tense chaotic energy around. It did seem to come and go somewhat for me but it was always there like there is a lot of fighting between the light and dark behind the scenes. A lot of stuff seemed to be coming up around me. For the last two weeks or so I have heard sirens daily whether day or night. The sirens drive the local coyotes crazy who howl, cry, and yelp whenever they hear them in the distance on the nearby main roads. 

I live in a rural suburb within a city. There are three main roads near this rural suburb and I can go outside and hear traffic in the distance. I heard cars and motorcycles with intentionally loud engines speeding and doing burnouts on these main roads followed by cop car sirens. This happened almost every night. These people are crazy and dangerous and its amazing how many have had bad luck getting caught by the police here in the last couple of weeks. There were multiple high speed police chases in the same area. I also heard multiple ambulance and fire truck sirens every night through this area. It was rare to hear them once a week just a few years ago. It is like I am in this somewhat calm space trying to hold the light so to speak and the surrounding world is raging, going insane, and succumbing to collapsing health. 

After sunrise I fell asleep and had a series of dreams which I dont fully remember. I believe my old neighbor Academi friend was in it. That certain vampire who keeps showing up in dreams may of been there too. Im not sure. The three of us may of been speaking about things. The next thing I remember was myself and my Academi friend were now alone in a neighborhood behind my old childhood house at night. Outside of the streetlights it was pitch black out but the homes were somehow illuminated. We were walking down the sidewalk like we used to. I think he was attacked in front of me by some people. 

I ran forward to help him and we fought the two attackers off. I think they were white with thin builds and average height and wearing street clothes. I recall being inside of a derelict gray wooden structure like a barn or large shed. I am not sure if we chased them into it or not but the fight continued in there. Pieces of the gray wood were used as weapons in the fight by myself and the attackers. We had the upper hand and the next thing I remember is being inside of a home I have never seen before. Someone, possibly a neighbor, was on a green John Deere like mower or something driving with a few children sitting on the sides. I think she was wearing a Publix grocery store uniform for some reason even though the place looked pretty rural outside. 

I went outside to see who this person was and what they were doing and it was suddenly like there was a small social gathering. I think it was mid to late afternoon and I had walked down the driveway. Immediately people dressed in formal and semi formal clothing began introducing themselves to me and I told a couple of them my name in a quiet and reserved way. There was a woman who was different than the rest of them behind me and I turned around. She was around six foot tall with straight blonde hair past her shoulders and glasses. I think she was wearing a semi formal white dress and she may of had a carnelian stone pendant on a necklace. It may of been mentioned by another woman there as a romance stone. 

She seemed different in that she wasnt friendly and outgoing like the rest and didnt really want to be there or feel comfortable there. Just like me. She also seemed nervous and maybe a little unworthy. I wanted to introduce myself but we didnt. This social gathering had gotten larger. This outdoor area now had a large sort of trellis and pergola wooden frame of crisscrossing wood panels and wooden beams. It was maybe eight foot high. I think I was now in the middle of the pergola and surrounded by people. 

A Catholic priest walked up to me, white and around six foot in height with sort of auburn short hair and beard, and grabbed my hands and began praying for me and blessing me which now even more people were cheering and happy for me. The outdoor gathering had turned into what may of been a large church of some kind and we were suddenly indoors. I feel like the message had something to do with the society in general being controlling and getting in the way of similar people connecting with each other and also of true romance. The uneasy blonde haired woman seemed to think that none of this is right and she couldnt go along with it all.

Thursday December 29th, 2022 

A while back I went grocery shopping, maybe a few weeks ago. A teenage girl who has worked there for a couple of years was working the check out line. She was ringing up my groceries and the other cashier in the next line said something to her. They seemed friendly with each other. The girl ringing up my groceries thought the other employee said she was fifteen years old and she laughed and said she was seventeen. She looks young so its probably something people tease her about. So on Thursday the 29th The same teenage girl was working the checkout line. She commented on some drinks I purchased which were her favorite and then gave me my receipt. With sales tax it came out to $117.15. 117 is a number I go through phases seeing. It also reminded me of the previous occasion where she thought the other girl said she was fifteen so she said she was seventeen. $117.15 and 17 and 15.

Saturday December 31st, 2022 

I went to the grocery store for my parents. There was a man playing music in the parking lot. I wasnt sure why. On my way out I saw that he had a sign that said he did not have money for rent and that he had kids. He was playing saxophone music and he sounded pretty good. I only had about seven dollars cash on me but I gave it to him and he told me God bless you. He sounded like he had an eastern European accent, maybe Russian or Ukrainian. 

2023 

I havent been posting anything this year except a post about the May 1st mass meditation. The reason is simply that things in this world are part of a controlled sea of chaos turned into a control system and I dont want to get to tied up in them. I always had paranormal activity and the peoples behavior around me never seemed natural. Something was always wrong. I could not consciously wrap my head around it and put into words but it was always there. Something is off here. I was on autopilot in a traumatized state from paranormal activity and the people around me but I took it all in and put it on file for later when I would be able to consciously began to understand and wake up so to speak. 

By my teens when others were deciding what they would pursue in college I was starting to come off of the autopilot mode. If I was asked what I wanted to do I just told them honestly that I had no idea. I was a mess in some ways and it was just not in the cards for me. I noticed all the dysfunction and degeneracy around and all of the adults doing nothing about it. We are supposed to go through school or get a regular job and be just like these same adults for forty years and then die? It seemed so dark and pointless and I was in a really dark place for a while. 

I am summing up a lot really quickly here but this was a part of my waking up process. Senior year in high school which was the 2008 to 2009 school year is when I started really consciously putting things together and going down rabbit holes. It started when we came back from Christmas break in early 2009. Obama was going to be inaugurated and some of the students said to one of the black students named Wolf "you must happy". He politely replied that it doesnt matter and that they are all the same. They are front men controlled by the same elites. He mentioned the bohemian grove video and I asked how it was spelt. People laughed like I was joking but he told me and I wrote it down. 

I watched it and it made sense. The world was not run like people thought it was and the people in positions of power were not what everyone thought and were taking orders from people the masses had not heard of and didnt vote for. We occasionally talked about things like Alex Jones or David Icke and we had some interesting talks. He didnt care for David Icke because of the paranormal subjects Icke got into but I listened to Icke anyways because something told me I should. 

I went down many rabbit holes over the next few years. I was recalling childhood paranormal activity and trying to figure out what was going on. My experiences put of file in my head and then forgotten were used to further piece things together. A reoccurring theme started that I would understand later. While David Icke was right about the cabal and archon network his info on the moon and Saturn seemed off to me. As much as I tried to get into it I could not pay attention to it and stopped trying. It was almost like I was being blocked from it although looking back I dont think it was actually bad. 

I had listened to project camelot in 2010 and 2011. The same thing starting happening with their 2011 videos. I went back to Alex Jones and coast to coast am and by 2013 their info just felt really off and I literally could not listen to them. What I found later was that these people along with most alt media are compromised in some way. They will be right about things and they will get bad sources and run with them or they are under archon network influence and are steered in bad directions. Icke is right about a lot of things but maybe not the moon and Saturn. Camelot and coast to coast may of been intelligence operations from the beginning. I think I was receiving guidance and was being kept on a better and more narrow path in this awakening journey. I intuitively started pulling back from more and more alt media and narrowing down what I spent time on. 

Offplanet media was one I could listen to and by late 2013 to early 2014 period I had found the 2012 Portal blog. I pieced things together and took care of day to day things for years while dealing with strange experiences and taking part in mass meditations. 2020 happened. Eventually 2021 and 2022 came and went. In 2023 writer Thomas Sheridan posted a video called wave function collapse where the bad timeline that we had been pulled onto was collapsing and we would start to get back to the better timeline that we should have been on going into the 2000s. 9/11 changed that along with the following war on terror and then the bad guys held on a bit longer with wokeism and 2020 but the bad timeline is collapsing and we are going back and moving forward. 

Sounds counterintuitive like back to future but it is happening that way. Time is spiraling forwards. When the spiral comes back around it doesnt repeat but it does rhyme. We were kept in a negative 20 year cycle and we are going back to the starting point, although 20 years after, but this time we dont get pulled into a negative loop but continue onto the path we were supposed to take twenty years ago. That is the idea.

 According to this theory you unplug from as much mainstream media as possible along with the people plugged into msm and mainstream ways of thinking and doing things. They are by design there to grab attention and keep you on the collapsing matrix. You also unplug from as much alt media as possible as it is just as bad in many ways and is also part of the matrix. You limit electronics which is tough ( I am on a computer right now ) but probably good, clean up diet if possible, get out in nature, and do not get too emotionally attached to anything. Although its much easier said than done its interesting to me that these are things I was intuitively trying to do since around 2013 or so like I was being guided to even though I did not consciously understand it at the time. Even before 2013 I never cared for cell phones or sports. The idea of obsessing over papers and tests in a university made physically ill. I was intuitively against so many of the things that are part of the matrix and declining now. I think it was all part of a plan. 

April 2023 

I took part in the Portal of light booster meditation on April 20th. I did one on the 18th and 19th as well, with the intention of the energy of them going into the one on the 20th. I had only been able to sleep in the late morning or early afternoon for some time as I have pretty erratic sleep patterns and they will get locked into a certain time of day or night for a while. It doesnt seem to be something I have any control over. I really wanted to take part in the May 1st Portal of light activation so I started trying to push my sleep closer to night by forcing myself to stay up a bit more each day. This way I would be awake at 1:06 pm which is when the activation happened in my timezone. 

It was rough and wasnt working and it was four days before May 1st. I pushed myself to stay up longer each day. Although I am used to being sleep deprived and do not usually get sick sleep deprivation can weaken the immune system and I got sick. I may of gotten sick at this time no matter what I did or how I slept. I used my violet ray machine and my really sore throat was gone within 24 hours. I still had a runny nose and bit of a cough but the violet ray also dealt with the headaches and congestion fairly well too. It works. 

I woke up in the early morning on May 1st and didnt feel too bad. My parents dogs were having problems though. The older dog pooped in her bed and at sixteen years old on one hand she is actually doing fairly well with half mile walks but on the other hand she is slowly dying of old age and cancer. The younger dog who is around eight years old threw up in his bed and had a dry warm nose and was shaking a bit. He had to be taken to the vet. We both got sick at the same time which is actually fairly common for a pet and master to get the same illnesses. I took part in the activation even though I wasnt a hundred percent, along with the following one on the 2nd. There is one more coming up on the fifth as part of this portal of light activation. 

 

 

August  2023 

I havent been doing much with this digital journal for a while now. I have been trying to focus more on grounding, inner work, and physical daily activities like healthier eating and more exercising. I havent been dealing with as many things of the metaphysical nature. One thing that comes to mind is a memory that popped into my head earlier this year in either spring or early summer like June. I am not sure but I am leaning towards summer. This does occasionally happen. I will space out and recollect something. Its almost like watching a movie in my head. I will remember something during these and although memory is not perfect I believe mine are above average. My memories of the paranormal nature tend to be well above average. 

 

In this memory my older sister was around middle school age. She was a freshmen in highschool at the latest but I want to say middle school so around thirteen years of age. This would of placed me around three to four years old. The school was close by so she may of walked home. It wouldve been northport middle school or fort pierce central high school depending on her age. She came home from school with a young woman. I believe I remember her name but I am not one hundred percent sure and I am not going to include it. 

 

I remember my sister telling my mother that this young woman was from Europe and may of lived all over Europe. She was only here temporarily for some reason and while this does happen its not that common for someone to show up at a school and then disappear. She was around 5'4 in height and was white with dark hair around shoulder length. I dont remember how she was dressed but darker clothing comes to mind and possibly a dress. I was in my sisters room because I always liked to see who my siblings brought home. Her friend came in and sat down at the foot of the bed and looked at me. My sister or mother asked me to leave the room and I did. 

 

I include this story because she reminds me of someone. I wrote another memory on Thursday July 7th, 2022 not long after the memory had come back to me just as this one had. It was the one that took place on Halloween in the late 1990s when I was eight or nine or so. I was dressed like an archetypal vampire and passed by two young woman who commented on my costume. They remind me of two particular young women. This young woman who entered our home in the early 1990s when I was three to four strongly resembled her to the point that it may of been the same person. With all the other paranormal activity I have had why not? 

 

If it is true and she is who I think she is than my life experiences were far more scripted than I thought. We are on a path and things were far more controlled and rigged than we are led to believe. It is starting to really look like I was a prisoner within my own life by design. The archon network may of had some very dangerous people around me as a child and my family were unknowingly used in this. At the least it was a subtle clue for the future. If I am wrong about who these people were than it is another interesting synchronicity. 

 

 

Tuesday August 15th, 2023 

I had an interesting dream sometime after sunrise. I dont recall all of the details but I do recall interacting with someone who I think was Marilyn Monroe and a certain vampire who may of been friends with her. It was nighttime and we were parked off of the side of the road which resembles an area near my home. There were no cars driving by. There was a streetlamp nearby and we were in a parked open top car and lounging in the back. Everything outside of the car and the street and grass under the light was pitch black. We were holding each other and she was pressing my head up to hers and also down to her chest. I distinctly remember holding her and seeing her silvery blonde hair up close. We spoke during all of this but I cannot recall what we said.

 

The vampire was sitting in the car too and I remember us all speaking but I dont remember what about. The only thing I really remember was compassion towards me from Monroe considering my situation. The way we spoke and held each other said a lot. I am basically alone and I am starting to think I was in an invisible archon network prison my entire life. I was never a big Marilyn Monroe fan or one of those guys that has a crush on her or has pictures of her or things like that although I did like that spy movie she was in. Why did I dream of her in this way? According to CoBra she was a high priestess.  

 

 

Wednesday August 16th, 2023 

The night after typing the previous post I had a sleep paralysis experience similar to the many I have had before. It was a horrible controlling feeling with a presence that I could only describe as cold and non-human. It makes the experiencer feel completely powerless and helpless. It also comes after a long hiatus from my blog which has happened before as retaliation for exposing certain experiences and information. As soon as I make a post I receive an attack.

Thursday or Friday 16th or 17th of November 2023

I am writing this late and I dont remember exactly when it happened. Before waking in the morning I had a strange dream while half asleep just before waking. It started in a business / school facility which I have dreamed of many times. They can also resemble department stores. I have been in these facilities many times. I have been by myself, in schools with youth and vampires just waiting or trying to find our way, in stores with aimlessly shuffling people, and many other scenarios. 

 

I was leaving something that looked like a mix of a bank, museum, and mall. I think there were people trying to keep me there. If I had to guess it was staff and security. I flew out through what looked like a store and everything turned to water but I just glided right over it. I was going incredibly fast. This water looked like a river with maybe mangrove trees on each side. It all just flew by. I may of been escaping with someone and I think the security were pursuing. Then the water turned into something like ice and I kept gliding. 

 

I found myself on snow. There was an embankment covered in snow around this snowy field where I had come from. Armed men were moving through the field towards me. They seemed small. I turned towards them and motioned my hand towards them and the ground exploded in front of and next to them in smoke and fire and dropped them. I did this to another group of soldiers with another hand motion. The ground blew up underneath them. 

 

A man and woman approached me from out of nowhere. They were white, blonde haired, thin, and very tall at close to seven foot. I think they were a couple. They were smiling and asked me to go with them. I pulled out my car key and used it like a knife and cut her arm. Blood spurt out and she recoiled from it but then it was like it repeated and didnt work. I woke up. If I had to guess what it means it would be that escaping from control systems and hostility from the outside world is not the most challenging thing for me it is closer human interaction, trusting people, and other things that many would find easy. Its kind of true.  

 

Friday March 8th, 2024

I am writing this down late. It actually happened in late February. I had a strange dream just before waking. I was outside behind the garage in the backyard. It seemed like nighttime and I recall it being different than the way it looks in real life. There were some old small motor boats and some pickup trucks. Its hard to remember this one but I was pursued by what may of been stray dogs or coyotes but they couldnt harm me. I think I got into the back of one of the pickup trucks and they left. 

 

 I remember a ton of other people outside that I didnt know and they may of been strange and hostile towards me. They just behaved in a strange way and had problems and agitation towards me for no reason. A certain youtube personality showed up and was very off as well and got really strange and hostile. I kept hitting him and he kept following me like it wasnt effective but it eventually stopped. 

 

The next thing I remember was being in my old childhood home. The area was flooded and the flood water came up into the yard and almost reached the front door but stopped. The house was on a bit of a hill so during storms the home never flooded but in this dream the water was close to the front porch. It was daylight and my father was on the front porch. He was talking to a black woman who I didnt recognize. She was coming up the yard and he asked her if she wanted to get out of the water and she was thankful. Thats when I woke up. One of many flood dreams that I have had. We were safe sheltering inside of the home. It reminds me of an fm144 post a while back about protection during this time in the home.